god. i've been soooooo pissed today. i'm so tired and stressed and fed up. god.
i just dont feel like listening anymore. i just want to sit and do nothing. i dont want to do my fucking assignments. due on my birthday! argh.
i am in way over my head in science. it took me and my partner 2 and a half hours to donour lab. it was a two hour lab class. every class is pissing me off.
film sucks. stupid prof. biology is good, but i dont have time to do the labs. but today we talked about porn =). yeah.... sociology is boring, and i have a big assignment due before my birthday. but it's a fun assignment. i did it on candice today. it was fun. and SF sucks ass.
argh
my head hurts from all the stress.
i was gonna writ more. but i'll do that later. i'm gonna go watch the movie.
and give out candy
11 127 people are killed each year by guns in the us
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[>]MOOD - better, awake
[>]MUSIC - The Rocky Horror Picture Show
[>]THINKING - amused
it's kinda funny that i woudl wear my Rocky Horror shirt on tv today, and then right after Sex and the City they would play The Rocky Horror show. funny. i'll watch for a bit, bravo dosent have commercials until halfway through. good movie. but if you dont like strange movies, then dont watch. i made the big mistake of watching this with my ex who is a fucking homophobic bastard. he freaked out when two guys started kissing.
so recently i've been saying argh alot. like the sctual word, not the sound. it's amusing. i've been so stressed.
i just had like a 2 hour nap. more like three. it was good. at like 8 i was soooo tired. so i stopped giving out candy and had a shower and went to lie down. but luckully i got up becasue i wanted to watch sex and the city.
i'm fucking mad at my SF TA and my mark. i handed two assignments in on the same week for SOCI and SF. and the soci one was worse. yet i got a B+ and on the SF one i got a D+. i've never gotten that low on an essay. i know what i did wrong, i know it was total crap. but now i have to go write another longer one. kill me. and then today in the tutorial, instead of talking about the upcoming assignment or talking about the readings, he went over pieces of each essay infont of the class and talked about what we should and shouldnt do. it was like puling teeth. luckully we didnt get to mine.
if you were wondering they are banners/buttons whatever you want. i was just bored and i really really wanted to make rosemina something. i dont know why. so yeah.
today on my day off i had to go to york for half an hour. it sucked b/c it's a half an hour drive there and back =( shitty
but my moom bought me Johnny's. kick ass. if you have bever had a Johnny burger, you my friend are sadly lacking in your experiences. if you don't trust me, trust Mike Myers. he listed them as one of his top reasons why he loves Toronto. they are one of mine too.
i saw Angela today when we went and picked jacob up from work. i needed to request my life off. she was soo happy to see me. and she was as brown as a nut. he husbands father had given them a surprise four day trip to the bahamas(? i dont remember if it was there or berumda or somewhere else starting with a B) becasue they arnt going on their honeymoon until like January.
i also saw Danielle. he and Angela are like best friends now. it's scary becasue Angela really hated her before.
so i requested off:
Nov 8th - morning shift only
Nov15-16 - TRIP
Nov21-22- MY BIRTHDAY WHOOO!!!
yeah.... hey this was gonna be a really short post. hmmmmm. not anymore.
oh so uma, what time do you want me to come etc. and how am i gonna find you???? i miss you=(
:: rain rain go away, come again some other day.. like NEVER
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[<] MOOD - tired
[<] MUSIC - rain
[<] THINKING
so my stupid prof for film today pissed me off. we still had half an hour of North by Nothwest to watch from last week, and what does he do? he sowed us the last two minutes. HELLO??? stupid idiot. he was tring to prove a point about what we were learning etc. he did prove his point, but i still wanna know why what happened happened. argh.
then we were watching some other movie, which i swear had some music from Kill Bill (it also had the guy from Jackie Brown another QT movie in it). this movie was sooo fucking confusing. it took me a whole hour to realize what the hell was going on.
then when it was 5:20 and we should have been let out of class, the prof was just sitting there. and he knew the time too b/c he checked his watch. so i just left. i've never done that before. but he wasnt letting us out and i had to catch a bus.
but it didnt make any difference becasue TTC FUCKING SUCKS ASS why the hell did only one bus to finch station come and like 10 downsview station buses came?? i waited for half an hour in the fucking pouring rain and DARK and cold. fucking ttc.
but <3 to my Dad. he picked me up halfway and bought me dinner. i would have just gotten home if i had taken the bus the whole way.
oh on a side note... i'm a little Disturbed about what i learned in Bio of sex today. the fact that our C is actually a little *cough* dick... yeahh... that just freaks me out. infact it downright scares me. look, i have goosebumps. (ask emily or me if you need explaining, and we also now know everything you could ever want to know about male or female anatomy and reproduction, and sex etc.... yeah. scary)
ANYWAYS.... i'm bored so yeah.. another Quiz for you.. even though you all know everything about me already. it's from Maria
1) state your name please? Sarah Louise
2) what name do you wish you had? something cool, not as white, ummm, crap i dont remembe waht it was
3) Where do you live? Markham Canada
4) Be more specific please a house?
5) what are you listening to right now? No Doubt - It's My Life .... yes i know i'm SAD
6) what are you wearing gorgeous? ;o) jeans, long sleve top, my distiller t-shirt and a sweater... and i'm still cold too
7) how are you feeling today? tired
8) what is your ethnic background? do you want a list??? ok well then her goes.. i'm Canadian. but if i break it down i'm English, Freanch, Native American, Irish, Welsh... and... i dunno probably more.
9) do you consider yourself religious? ha ha ... yeah next question
10) do you have any hobbies? yeah? what are they? uhhhh.. procrastinating?
11)if you could be any cartoon character who would you be? Heart from Heart of the City.. i dunno.
12)which superhero do you relate to the most? thats hard... superliza?
13)what would your special powers be if you had them? ooooo moving things, telekenetic, hehehe the things i could do then
14)would you use your powers of good or evil? define evil
15)be honest.... evil
11)whats your favorite food to eat? i love food too much. right now i'm liking the chocolate chip bagle from the bagle shop at school... and its only a buck!! score
12)your favorite alcoholic bevrage? no booze? ok favorite softdrink? Strawbery Daquri... or Simernoff (sp?) coolers
13)your favorite confection? again, want a list
14)do you eat meat? yeah sadly. i wouldnt but it's hard. i only eat chicken and beef
15)if so whats your favorite animal to eat? i dont really like eating animals. but you can't go wrong with chicken. oh wait you can. nvm
16)ahh its ok. we are what we eat! eek!
17)whats your favorite place to dine? Montannas is good. they have kick ass deserts and they let us be loud. and i usually get good waiters
18)where do you buy most of your clothes? uhhh, sad but b/c i tend to be broke it's Old Navy. if i lived in the states it would be Hot Topic. then i could be a cool poser hahahaha
19)do you like to accessories? if so, whats your favorite accessory? my black stone ring, my guess purse(on sale! go me!) a cute boy?
20)what makeup product do you love to wear the most? BLAK EYELINER!!! i would die without it!! Rimmel in both Liquid and solid. if i was rich it would be MAC but as i mentioned before... Money... need MONEY
22)whats your favorite shampoo brand? oh wait, do you wash your hair? ewwwww, i have too much hair not to wash it. I like some cheap brand that they dont make anymore called Stiff, and Fructis
23)bath or shower? shower all the way
24)whats your favorite smell in the whole world? strawberries? ooo fresh fruit like oranges on the tree. we go on orange tree into work and it smelled so so good!! or cinamon. i get high off of the cinamon sticks at work
25)whats your favorite taste? hmmmmmmmmmmmm?
26)whats your ideal date like? describe it for me see this would be a very very long description. and i have yet to be on a date i would call ideal. which sucks
27)ever been in love? i though it was, but nope, infaturation..
28)in lust? yeah... thats maybe it, 9 months of lust
29)whats your favorite magazine? Blender music magazine
30)favorite book? again this list thing... look to the side <-----
31)favorite artist? musician or painter? oh painter... Degas or Monet
32)favorite tv show? look to the side <----- my tv loves me. his name is bob. .. i never used to watch tv, so it's kinda sad now how much i watch it
33)favorite music personality? Gwen Stefani... a close second is Shirly Manson
34)favorite website? mine? hahaha. faveorite fan site is In With the Breeze
35)am i annoying you yet? nope. but my hand hurts
36)whats your favorite item of clothing? that i own? or want to own. i want a nice fedora type hat. but i <3 jeans
37)have you ever "gone commando" nope. but i wear thongs sometimes
38)do you wear a bra? uhhh... no... god. i HAVE to. ew. sorry. it bothers me when peole dont
39)am i annoying you now? nope... it takes a lot to anoy me
40)have i offended you yet? nope. but it dosent take alot to do that
41)are we still friends? sure
42)i hope so yay
43)i love you!! i love you too... wait.. i sound like a stalker
[<] MOOD - meh
[<] MUSIC - The Sounds - Hit me
[<] THINKING
Today has been interesting.
I did nothing all day, and I still had a shitty day.
It started out with how my mom and I spent the whole day arguing, my whole family was getting on my nerves. I spent much of the day in my room on my computer, trying to make graphics, but not getting anywhere and hating everything I made. I know I can't make good graphics because I have no idea what I'm doing, and I'm too lazy, but it would have been nice for something to get made or done.
Sometimes I wish that I had moved out or gone to a University away from home. That way I would actually feel like a university student, and I would actually be doing things that made me feel like one. It would be a step towards becoming an adult. Yet I'm here at home where it's just like I'm in high school. They don't seem to understand that I don't necessarily have time to do things family orientated. As I see it, I'm like a boarder, I just live here. I may not be home all the time, and when I am home, I don’t really want to have to do things around the house or get in shit when things don't get done. If I'm not here, then how the hell am I supposed to do things. I would be rather living on my own, or in a residence. If I could move out, I would. But I'd need someone to live with and I'd need money. I have no money. And if I moved out, I'd have no job, because I'd move closer to York, and White Rose is in fucking Unionville.
bah
so I realized that in the last year I gained like 20 pounds. I went from being a size 7 to like an 8 or 9. it was ok when I was working out at the gym or at school. But I stopped taking gym in grade 11 because the teacher was a psycho and going to the gym only lasted like 3 months. Sarah + working out infront of other people = disaster. So I used to dance in my room or to weights or crunches. But then I stopped. I never used to stick with it for long. But I'd really like to loose 10 pounds. I lost 5 earlier this year, and it would be great to loose 10 more because I seem to be gaining weight again. it's all this food I'm eating. I eat too much, and not healthy enough. dammm Wendy's and their cheap food. The Bagle place and the Fruit place are now my friends. I will try eating there from now on. And I am going to stop drinking pop again. I started again like 3 weeks ago. Argh. Why can't weight magically disappear?
I started doing crunches and these side abs things that I saw Britney Spears do once. They really do work. And I lifted weights for the first time since like May. It was only 5lbs and it HURT. God. I'm so out of shape. I need a treadmill. Emily give me yours.
I've been so depressed recently. I need to snap out of it. But there is no incentive to do it. Last time I was seriously depressed was after my boyfriend broke up with me. and I was deep down and lost. I'm not lost yet. I'm still functioning. I’m not having random panic attacks or random crying yet. I'm just bitchy and yell at people and get upset really easily. So if I yell at you or piss you off, in advance, I'm sorry.
I haven't even fully recovered from the depression after the breakup. I still have mini moments of panic if I ever see anyone who looks remotely like him. still. Over a year after, I'm still like this. It's kinda pathetic. But I haven't had a successful relationship or even a crush since him so it's understandable. He put me off guys for like a year. Now I'm finally ready to have a fling. I don't even want a boyfriend. I just want someone in a simple relationship, that might turn serious, but I don't have time or the effort. Plus I SUCK at talking to guys. And I can't find anyone even remotely interesting. I should go to Western, drink and make out with some guy. Or C. could e-mail me or phone me or something. Dammit. Why hasn't he? Maybe my stupid uncle didn't give it to him yet. Argh.
I'm stressed and frazzled and depressed and my hormones are raging. Oh and were learning about sex in Biology. Great.
[<] MOOD - good i guess
[<] MUSIC - Talk Talk - It's my Life
[<] THINKING
Would it seriously hurt any of you to comment??
i'm keeping this journal because i dont se many of you anymore or at all, and it would be nice to know that someone other than the two people i see practally every day has something to say. god. i know my life isnt that interesting but you could at least comment and say hi.
like i say something important and no one comments. or i put a new layout up and no one comments. *hint, what are you looking at now, why 'gasp' it's a new layout* or when i feel shitty and pissed and rant or something, no one seems to care.
i enjoy having ablog. but if no one's gonna care at all, then why bother.
...
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so the layout works only on 1024x768, if you have a lower resolution, the tables may look strange. and the colour dosnt match. it did before, but now it dosent. and i'm too pissed to take care of it. i really dont care about it right now.
and i had lots of interesting things to say too about my day. oh well.
edit - ok so i THINK i fixed the frames. i hope i did.
[<] MOOD - great
[<] MUSIC - Conan on tv
[<] THINKING - ahh sex and the city
ohmygod, sex and the city was sooo good today!! the last 5 mins were so good.
Burger is a TOTAL ass. but i knew he was gonna do what he did.
and harry and charlote are getting married. ee. it was so good tonight.
today was ok. in the car on the way home emily and i had an attack of hysterical laughing. it hurt so much. my stomach hurts from it. i'm starting to laugh even now just thinking about it. the funny thing is we didnt laugh over anything at all. i think. i don't remember, oh well.
[<] MOOD - meh
[<] MUSIC - No Doubt - It's my life
[<] THINKING - this site kicks ass
i think i have an unhealthy obsession with this song. when i was in the bagle place today they played it on the radio and i stayed to listen, even though i wasnt going to.
yeah emily today chenged the whole perspective of my last post
i really did want the whole world to choke and die.
"power to the people"
ok
hahaha. i already teased her about it so it's ok. she has a crush. her mind is elsewhere.
she is sooo gonna regret letting me know about her crush. i think it's cute. i made her turn red today. go me!
so i can relax for two days or so. today is all about tv. tv and more tv. i missed my tv. stupid ass exams. who the hell puts exams in the middle of october?? i don't start processing things until like febuary. argh. luckully i had only two exams. one on monday, biology and multiple choice. and today was sociology. i was sooo freaking out over that. like seriously so much. it was two essay questions and we had to prepare for both of them. then when we got to class she flipped a coin. i was so stressed. i spent the whole day preparing. i ignored my bumbling, stuttering, mumbling idiot of a teacher, emily took notes, and i STUDIED so much. mostly for question two becasue it had to do with two theoristis, Karl Marx and The Comunist Manefestio and Emile Durkhiem and Social Facts. and Question one had to do with a really easy theorist and Erin Brockivich.
so she flipped the coin and it was question one.
the class went wild.
they were screaming and cheering soo loud becasue its the easy question. instead of having sheets they have books that have lined paper. i filled like one and a half. like 20 pages? or something. alot.
o i craduated last night. it's offical. I'M FUCKING DONE WITH MILLIKEN. yeah. lots happened at commencement. but i dont wanna go into it. most of it was good. i graduated. thats about it.
[<] MOOD - meh, mood?
[<] MUSIC - none, my parents snoring, my mind singing the chorus from Garbage - Vow, hense the title lyrics. a continuation of last post where again, i had Vow in my head.
[<] THINKING - my stomach hurts
why am i here??
it's almost 4am
yet here i am
it's all jacobs fault. at 3am the doorbell was being ringed non stop. for like 5 mins. so i got up and it was jacob's girlfriend's mom. she was wondering where his gf was. she was in his room. at 3 am. apparently she fell asleep or her leg hurt (she got hit by a car earlier today/yesterday and hurt her leg). but i am now WIDE awake. so i fixed my layout. i hope it works. luckully i dont have work as usual at 9. i have it at 2 so i should be awake for that.
i keep thinking about the guy. i can't get it off my mind
:: i came to shut you up, i came to drag you down, i came to tear your little world apart
::
[<] MOOD - pretty darn good EDIT: now fucking FRUSTRUATED
[<] MUSIC - SNL
[<] THINKING - why the fuck dosent haloscan work!!! god
so i tweaked my layout. it's a little too big. but oh well. but now halo scan dosent work. why?? wtf
edit:now an hour later, i scraped the whole thing for now. i'll fix it tomorow on my other computer. i am soooooo frustruated right now. i just want to grap the computer and shake it until it dies. so it's back to the old layout until i fix it tomorow. or whenever i have time. too many things were going wrong. now back to my old post.
arrgh. i just did EXACTALLY what the websote said to do. but nooooo. maybe it will start working soon.
so today i had my aunt & uncles house warming party. it was ok. alot of family and alot of people i didnt know. my aunts parents had come in from Trinadad for a while. her mom rememberd me, and the first thing she said was, 'oh i remember you, you gained weight.'
ok
yeah then my uncle took me into the kitchen and it was so. funny. this is what happened.
uncle: so you know how we went to Florida?
me: *thinking no* yeah
uncle well we stayed at *blanks* house. you remember clause right?
me: *lightbulb goes off in head* YEAH
uncle: well he has been trying to get a hold of you. he tried for awhile, but the e-mail you gave didnt work or something. so if you don't mind, i was wondering if i could give him you phone #
me: *hell yeah* sure, but my cell
my sister: *choking on her breath, she in shock see*
yeah. so good. i'm happy over that. and then i called candice and started to tell her, but then my phone battery died. it went down to i thing left. then when i left pickering, it went back up to half. ?!? i dunno. my phone is fucked
it was freaky driving home down these weird country roads with no lights other than the car lights and it pouring rain. so freaky.
hmmm Britney on SNL. it's the same old same old. same dance. a crap song with more rap music in it. same song asking everyone to dance with her. *sigh* lost cause that one
[<] MOOD - okdokie
[<] MUSIC - Conan on tv
[<] THINKING - this computer sucks
so i just downloaded like 10 garbage videos and they work and everything. except for some reason on this computer the Window's Media Player sound is not WORKING. why? i don't know. se the point of music videos is the MUSIc as well as the video. so i can watch them but it's silent. or i can waste a cd and move them onto my computer. hmmm. yes the dilemmas that hit me at 1 am.
Conan had a baby girl
today was ok. meh. i saw candice and emily as usual. and like two other ppl from mmhs. and the first thing they said was, 'wow, look at your hair'. i swear i didnt get this many comments when i dyed it pink. but now that i've done this to my hair, EVERYONE is noticing. i dunno. i think it makes me look like a whore. i have whore hair.
yeha this guy came up to me when i was reading my Blendre magazine at lunch today, it was strange. he was this chinese guy with a think chinese accent and he looked like a FOb. no offense. but i don't like strangers apporaching me. yet, he did. this is how it went:
guy: hey, do you support canadian music?
me: *thinking, uhh most of it sucks sooo no* uh no.
guy: have you ever heard of *insert band name here*?
me:no
guy: oh. well thats my band.
me: *silence*
guy: *takes out cd and starts rambling a/b band etc* yeah, were a hip hop band
me: *chinese fob in a 'hardcore' hip hop band(thats how he described it)* uh huh
guy: yeah we have a show *insert date time place here* you should come. it would be really cool
me: uh huh
guy: KEEPS ON TALKING
me: *grabs cell phone, maybe can pretend that someone is calling me, can this guy not get a hint*
guy: keeps on talking more a/b band
me: *considering grabbing things and running*
guy: uh ok, so yeah it was great talking to you
did i talk?
yeah that was just strange
i was gonna study today, i really really really should have. but i didnt. i fixed some of the problems i had with this layout. but there on the other computer, so i'll fix it later. i have two exams next week and i honestly have learned NOTHING at all. i'm screwed.
*snif* goodbye free cable internet. after getting my cable free for like 7 years, it's going bye bye. *snif*
::edit:: anagin my floppy disk drive has erupted. i can't upload the changes to this layout until tonight maybe. but it looks soooo pretty. i like it better. i just moved things etc. oh well. .... hey i still have my free cable... why?? i dunno. itil be gone soon enough.
"I'll be walking through a club thinking, I'm so fat today, or, why am I wearing so much makeup? And then this girl comes up and says, 'You're so beautiful. Can I have your autograph?' And it's like: If you only knew what's going through my head right now! Thanks for coming up and saving me from, like, slaughtering myself."
i got this survey from Jessica at nxdgrrl who got it from someone else, meh. sharing is fun. i never do these stupid things so you have to bear with me.
--> b a s i c s .
[x] city born in: Scarborough, Ontario
[x] location now: Matkham Ontario
[x] parents married/divorced: married
[x] who are your closest friends: cristina, candice, emily, uma, my stalkers
[x] who makes you laugh the most?: emily or candice
[x] who knows the most about you?: candice
--> o t h e r .
[x] do you have a job: i'm a cshier at White Rose
[x] what are you scared of: people, children, being attacked, etc
[x] who's your role model: my mom, my aunt tanya, Gwen Stefani
[x] most interesting thing you've did this summer: hung out with my friends. seriously. i did nothing!!
[x] what store do you shop at the most: old navy, sad i know, i hate that kind of store, but it's CHEAP
[x] have you ever done any drugs: NOPE
[x] do you collect anything: not really
[x] are you a ditz: more like a bitch
--> f a v o r i t e s .
[x] thing in your room: my computer, my posters, my kick ass collage on my wall of the last few months mementos
[x] cd: NXD - Return of Saturn, Garbage - beautifulgarbage, NXD - Tragic kingdom
[x] song(s): Oh god. lets not even go there. waayyy to many
[x] ice cream: ALERGIC TO MILK HERE. i miss ice cream
[x] thing to do: play in photoshop, make webpages, talk to friends, listen to music
[x] hangout: i don't go out anywhere really
[x] pizza topping: again ALERGIC TO MILK. but i like pineapple
--> r a n d o m .
[x] dream house: big house outside of Toronto, beach house outside of LA, or condo with a great view in TO, on the harbourfront
[x] what age do you want to get married: 25, possibly
[x] how many kids do you want: ZERO. NONE. ZIPPO
[x] girl's names: uh, hailey, katherine, cristina
[x] boy's names: jason, josh
--> h a v e Y O U e v e r .
[x] cheated on a test?: yeah in public school we had a whole system going, it was like 6 of us and we were sooo good at it
[x] cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend?: NEVER. people tried to gt me to, but i couldnt
[x] tied your shoes together?: i think people like emily have tied them together so something. i dunno
[x] eaten something with a lot of fat?: uh YEAH. why do you think i'm so CHUBBY
--> f e e l i n g s .
[x] worst feeling in the world: being dumped. having someone die
[x] best feeling in the world: being happy for someone else. i'd say love but i've never been in love. i thought i had been but nope. was infaturation
[x] can you define love?: still trying
[x] do you get along with your parents?: yeah. we're all just like friends now
[x] are you ticklish?: nope. it drives people NUTS. but i am tickilish. i hide my tickilish spot. no one really knows. you don't tickle me. you have to push it
--> o p p o s i t e S E X .
[x] 1st thing you notice about the opposite sex: hair, eyes, height, personality
[x] perfect "dream" date:... ok this is what Jessica said, soooo true "uuh... johnny depp with his pirate eyeliner on? and whipped cream? heh."
[x] who is your best friend of the opposite sex?: don't have one
[x] what do you look for in the opposite sex? he has to treat me like i'm important to him, notice me, care
[x] what does the opposite sex not know about you? what the hell does that mean? i don't know every man on the planet!
--> n i g h t T I M E .
[x] what do you wear to bed: a t-shirt and either my Old Navy pj pants w/ candy wrappers on or my Tigger PJ pants, really comfy
[x] what's your bed time: i don't have one. usually about 12, depends on what i'm doing the next day, how early i have to get up
[x] do you wish on stars: i used to
[x] is there a TV in your room: nope. i was gonna buy one. but i don't need it
[x] what's the last thing you do before you fall asleep: i set my alarm clock, listen to music or read a book
--> m i s c e l l a n e o u s .
[x] how many schools have you been to: 3 MMpS MMHS and YOrk
[x] are you passive or aggressive: passive most of the time
[x] vanilla or chocolate: chocolate!! oh wait. ALERGIC TO MILK
[x] would you rather be hot or cold: hot. i tend to be FREEZING most of the time
[x] what is your curfew: as late as i want but i have to tell my parents if i'm gonna be really late, usually about 11:30 - 12 is early
--> f r i e n d s .
[x] person you can trust the most: candice, cristina
[x] what is the best quality of a friend: honesty
[x] what friend do you have the most fun with: candice, cristina emily uma.... wait most EVERYONE becasue all my friends ROCK
yeah this was kinda a waste of my time. most people arn't even gonna read it.
Today was ok. sooo TIRED though. i had Sociology, then lunch with Candice and LIZa then SF and then SOCIOLOGY again. i have an exam next week, i'm soo screwed. they gave me the question(s) already. it could be either one of them. i'm still screwed. i want a cheat sheet!! but they wont let me.
yeah i could have left the class an hour early b/c most people did, even the prof. but i am such a LOSER that i stayed.
*ring ring* loserdom calling
we were reviewing and we finished so she was like you can leave or if we can find Erin Brockivich we will watch the end. i've seen the movie like 10 times and i still stayed. there were like 30 of us who stayed, and the class has 250. god i'm such a loser hahaha
i had like a three hour nap and i'm not gonna sleep tonight. i suck.
:: burn down all your idols, destroy your idols, it's all a dream
::
[<] MOOD - tired
[<] MUSIC - Kylie Minogue - Slow
[<] THINKING - my head ITCHES, i need to wash it. but no TIME
so today was a pretty ok day
i only had one class. i would have rather slept in like i did for the last four days but oooh well. these four day weekends are making me into the biggest proctastinator. i totaly suck. i have all this sociology shit i should have done but i couldnt care less. at leat i did my assignment. it's total crap. worse than my usual crap. it totaly blows. oh well.
today emily SKIPPED class so i got a ride home. kick ass. we went to WR, it was kinda funny. i walk in the door (the exit door becasue all the cool people use the exit door, haha) and like 5 people attacked my head. they all grabbed my hair at the same time. it was kinda freaky. i didnt expect anyone to notice, but they all did. i think they liked my hair, i like my hair. it's my kickin whory hair. hahaha. i think it makes me look like Cristina Aguilera which makes me look like a whore. thats not a bad thing though. i like her whorey look.
then my mom took me shopping for a winter jacket. i didnt kind one. i found posibilities. but they all ITCH. which sucks ass. and there all soooo expensive. and too think. i need like a heater in my coat to keep me warm because i'm cold bloded and i like in canada. not a very good combo if i must say.
my mom made me go into Winners. but then i rememberd that it was wednesday and liza gets wednesdays off so i thought she was working. and whoo, i found liza. but she wouldnt give me a gun to shoot myself with. sucks. yeah. i hope i didnt get her in trouble becasue i talked with her for a while.
another cool thing was she noticed my hair. i didnt expect her too. don't ask me why. i'm weird what can i say.
yeah. tomorow i have sociology twice and SF. i hate thursdays. i hope they die.
universitys not as much fun as it was last month.
i'd rather be sleeping and getting free money from the money tree. that sounds so much better to me.
so yeah. i made a new layout while i was procastinating today. it took me longer to put it together than i thought becasue frontpage ATE my layout TWICE. god. go die. yeah. but it's done. i really like it. i love gwen. it's my 'Halloween' layout becasue i was gonna go out dressed like she is in this video for haloween. but i can't now. dyeing my hair pink now would be like taking two steps backward.
[<] MOOD - pretty darn good
[<] MUSIC - nothing
[<] THINKING - some people....
see the point of this being MY diary is that it is totaly and completly MINE
My opinions, my thoughts and my ideas
this amuses me so so much.
this is an e-mail i just got
yo freak..
why are you being so pathetic talking about me on your "diary"...what are u a little girl?...i said FU as a joke, ppl started laughing i didn't think u would take offense to a joke..i guess u can't take a joke...to be honest u were bugging the shit out of me..and don't think i was bored and decided to read ure blog..ppl came up to me laughing at u about u writing about me over something so stupid....and btw ppl don't need to be reminded how much they HATE u, they do normally..and stop acting like a princess , "he's not worth my time"..what is that...ure so pathetic...and isn't it ironic that u weren't even sapposed to be invited..and ure the one bitching...if you have somthing to say then say it to my face don't go talking behind my back, what are u afraid to say it to my face, no surprise there coward...come rip my throat out...pathetic loser...
ohh one more thing...F-U
Sincerely Jason....
yes
do i even need to comment??
treat people as you want to be treated yourself.
"what are u afraid to say it to my face"
apparently you are afraid to say it to my face
and who are these mysterious 'people' or 'ppl' as those of us who can't type call them, these mysterious people who seem to be everywhere and telling other 'people' my business. it's all very confusing. i didnt know that i knew 'ppl'. hmmm very strange. ironic too. whenever someone tries to do something like this it's always from information from these mysterious 'people'. cool. i have haters out there. i must have done something right. go me! nameless things called 'people' hate me. whooo!
[<] MOOD - HAPPY
[<] MUSIC - TV - SNL
[<] THINKING - kill bill rocks my socks
today was FUN
we went out for lunch for shaun's birthday. it was ok. but it just reminded me why i HATE Jason. i just want to rip his throat out. he's so fucking rude and such a bastard. anyways. people like him dont deserve my time
then candice mina and i went to mina's and hung out. it was fun except we got BORED
then uma picked us up and we went and saw kill bill. that movie blew my mind. it was so good. i liked it more than Pulp Fiction. Uma and i had fun. Mina didnt like the blood so much. and i think candice liked it. it was really good. i'm gonna see it again.
it was amusing becasue i realized if i payed cash then they would id me and i wouldnt get it. so i used the express machine. i'm not legal yet.
i missed uma so so much. i really really want to go visit her at western now.
so i ahd fun today. except i got into a big as fight with my mom about getting a lip piercing. i have a strange relationship with my parents. we get along and when they say i cant do something. i really can't. so my mom said that i can't get anymore piercings then my 3 ear ones and i cant get tattoos until i move out. i can do whatever i want to my hair but cant do anything else. i merely brought the lip piercings idea up and she freaked. she got so mad. like what the fuck. i could so go out and do it. the wouldnt kick me out like theys said they would, but our relationship would be RUINED. it sucks.
tomorow wedding.
monday sleeping
tuesday all my homework/sleep
wednesday more homework
OOOOOO. I got a e-mail from nodoubt.com. and it sucks b/c the release date for the stuff has changed to november 25th. AFTER my birthday. it sucks. but i'm still gonna get the stuff for my birthday. heres what i want
"The four-disc Deluxe Box Set, entitled Boom Box, in stores on November 25, brings together The Singles 1992-2003; Everything In Time (B-Sides, Rarities, Remixes) a CD that includes seven previously unreleased tracks, and two DVDS: The Videos 1992-2003 (featuring videos of the CD's singles) and Live In The Tragic Kingdom, a 1997 concert performance at the Arrowhead Pond in Anaheim previously available only on VHS.
The Rock Steady Live DVD will also be issued November 25th. Recorded at a 2002 Long Beach Arena show, the concert features 17 songs, including all of the band's hits, plus additional live footage, band interviews and behind-the-scenes peeks."
if you love me buy me this
oh wait. i'll just get my parents to buy it for me for my birthday
Boom Box - Limited Edition Deluxe Box Set
disc 1: The Singles 1992-2003
1) Just A Girl
2) It's My Life
3) Hey Baby featuring Bounty Killer
4) Bathwater
5) Sunday Morning
6) Hella Good
7) New
8) Underneath It All featuring Lady Saw
9) Excuse Me Mr.
10) Running
11) Spiderwebs
12) Simple Kind Of Life
13) Don't Speak
14) Ex-Girlfriend
15) Trapped In A Box
disc 2 (DVD): The Videos 1992-2003
1) Running
2) Underneath It All featuring Lady Saw
3) Hella Good
4) Hey Baby featuring Bounty Killer
5) Bathwater
6) Simple Kind Of Life
7) Ex-Girlfriend
8) New
9) Oi To The World
10) Sunday Morning
11) Excuse Me Mr.
12) Donâ??t Speak
13) Spiderwebs
14) Just A Girl
15) Trapped In A Box
disc 3: Everything In Time (B-Sides, Rarities, Remixes)
B-SIDES
1) Big Distraction
2) Leftovers
3) Under Construction
4) Beauty Contest
5) Full Circle
6) Cellophane Boy
RARITIES
7) Everything In Time (Los Angeles)*
8) You're So Foxy*
9) Panic*
10) New Friend featuring Bucaneer*
11) Everything in Time (London)*
12) Sailin' On
13) Oi To The World
14) I Throw My Toys Around featuring Elvis Costello
REMIXES
15) New & Approved (New remix)
16) A Real Love Survives (Rock Steady remix) featuring Ms. Dynamite*
17) A Rock Steady Vibe (Rock Steady remix) featuring Sweetie Irie*
*previously unreleased track
disc 4 (DVD): Live In The Tragic Kingdom
1) Tragic Kingdom
2) Excuse Me Mr.
3) Different People
4) Happy Now?
5) D.J.â??s
6) End It On This
7) Just A Girl
8) The Climb
9) Total Hate
10) Hey You
11) The Imperial March
12) Move On
13) Donâ??t Speak
14) Sunday Morning
15) Spiderwebs
16) Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da
SO FUCKING EXCITED
Justin's Hosting SNL. intermolesting. i wonder if he'll be funny
EDIT:: angelfire is fucked and my pictures dont seem to be working. oh well. you guys can live with a white layout for now
[<] MOOD - good
[<] MUSIC - Pink - Trouble (video)
[<] THINKING -
i swear i've been where they filmed the saloon scene of this video. i think it's the WB lot in LA. i have pictures. but i need to find them. it's probably there. it looks just like it.
today was a kinda shit day. but i had fun in my SF tutorial. we were talking a/b gender diffenences b/c we read this book called 'Herland' which is about a society of just women. it was sooo much fun. the TA had to make all the guys shut up and was like, 'no i want the girls opinion' and they could not shut up. they kept on interupting and trying to argue. so funny. yeah. my stomach hurts.
so last night we had tons of fun. i learned sooo much about danielle. she shares alot. i mean ALOT.
i really had something to say here. seriously. uhhhhhhh............ i don't have school for 4 days?? nope. not that. i don't rmmber. oh well. when i do i'll come back here.
:EDIT: ok i still don't remember but thats ok becasue UMA IS BACK!!!! WHOO! yeah. i talked like forever to her on the phone. then as soon as i hung up cristina phoned me. my ear hurts. i soooo want to go to western and visit!!!
yeah, i have spent the last few weeks making layouts and i hated them all. then today i bought this picture of audrey hepburn and i made the layout in a few mins. seriously. and it's so pretty. i wish it could be all white with nothing but the pictures, but i ned the links. oh well. too bad so sad
:: and i've asked myself how much do you commit yourself
::
[<] MOOD - happy, DEAD tired
[<] MUSIC - The Distillers - The Young Crazed Peeling, NXD - It's My life
[<] THINKING - sleep
so tired
so tonight was fun. candice, em cristina angela danielle and andrea went out to dinner and then to danielles house. fun. seriously i had fun hanging out with my bosses, strange eh?? but i've heard so many drinking storys at WR already from them that it wasnt that strange
i had fun. i'd write more but i need sleep. i'll write later. i havent felt like writing much recently because only candice seems to care about my life anyways so since i see her lots and talk to her lots i dont bother posting that much.
i do have tons to say. but i dont feel like saying. for example, shit happened today but i dont wanna write about it b/c i already told candice about it.
[<] MOOD - good
[<] MUSIC - my dad's watching baseball on tv ... Boston just won
[<] THINKING - blah blah blah
today= no school
tomorow= no school+'Bend it' movie day w/ my mom
wednesday=one hour of school+5 hours of work
thursday=kill me, hate thursdays. but dinner for Angela with WR people
friday=school, essay due then WEEKEND
saturday=making candices +my hair STRAIGHT
sunday=WEDDING
monday=SLEEP
yes, thats the next week in a nutshell
today we gave Angela her present. it was good. she almost cried. goodie times
then we went to the mall
i found the cutest dress. but it'd be like $70 and i'm poor
but soo cute
i finally finished my essay.
total CRAP
it sucks sooooo much. eeee. it's 10% too. dammitt. i have till friday to cut it down from 838 to 750. i already cut it down from like 100.
ooo matrix trailer was just on tv. not it's the bend it trailer. kick ass.
yeah, why does the matrix trailer have scenes from the last movie. thast wast it mostly is. stupido.
i dyes my sisters hair blue today. jacob did it for her yesterday and it looked GRAy. i i did it today. now it looks BLUE. i did a good job. *pats self on back*
:: Love is a many splendid thing. love, lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love.
::
[<] MOOD - pretty good
[<] MUSIC - The Sounds - Rock n Roll
[<] THINKING - happy birthday to kathleen
yeah so i watched a lot of queer eye tonight
yes
i am so totaly facinated by my wisdom teeth. it's like a whole new thing to me. i don't remember my teeth coming in before because well duh, i was little. i only remember them coming out. so now i keep on feeling these little things poking into the back of my mouth, and i want to go look at them in the mirror. it's kinda sick and sad. but facinating. the sucky part is i eat on my molars at the back of my mouth. yeah OUCH. it fucking hurts now.
:: knock knock. whos there. surf. surf who? Surf me dinner and be quick about it.
::
[<] MOOD - good
[<] MUSIC - none
[<] THINKING - ahhh. my house is being cleaned
so today is my sisters birthday party. i got up at 12 and ahhhh. my parents have like uber cleaned the whole house. its freakishly clean. normally it's a pigsty with junk everywhere. i'm scared. normally they don't clean it if i have friends coming over. what makes kathleen so special??
yesterday school was pretty good. bio was FUNNY as hell.
note to EMILY: 'Garden Gnome" hahahaha
yes. anyways.
and i had a loooong ass tutorial for SF. me and my three friends were joking around, we couldn’t concentrate at all!!. Then everyone else in the class was silently goofing off. Like two people were playing with chop sticks. So funny.
And the TA seriously let us out like 10 mins late! Candice was phoning me and I keept on msging her saying ‘I’m in class’ like it was insane.
Anyways. Then candice and I went downtown. It was actually pretty funny. candice kept on going 'oh look sarah, that guy is checking you out!' uhh ok. no one was. then it we were walking by these two guys and they were like 'woah look at those girls! growwl' hahahaha. ok then. right. if so many guys are checking me out then why the hell dosent any of them ask me out?? and how come the only time i ever had any guys hitting on me or telling me that i'm beautiful was when i had a boyfriend? hmmmmm. my horemones need a fling.
hahaha. talking stitch. yes. i just phoned candice and talked to stitch. he's soo cute.
CRISTINA!!!! you figured out how to post a comment!!! good job. haha
wow. that layout lasted a day. how sad. i think it was because it wasnt totaly mine. or made by someone i knew. there is just a total satisfactiory feeling about making something, and having it be so PRETTY
yes
i am now obsessed with making layouts.
yes.
today was ok. i had bio. the lab was surprisingly easy. it involved blood. real blood. ewww. i got my last lab back. i got 85%. but then i got 5% taken off for spelling. becasue i. really. really. cant. spell.
tomorow should be a shit day. i hate thursdays. i hate the bus.
SOMEONE GO OUT WITH ME ON SATURDAY NIGHT BETWEEN 6 AND 10. my sister is having a birthday party. sarah + many 14 yr olds = many dead fourteen year olds. i need to go out or heads will roll.
Gilmore Girls was really good tonight. i love that show. thank god jess is gone. but he's noew on Boston Public. oh well. i don't kile Boston Public. I am so into tv right now. becasue all these shows are premering. i didnt get to watch much tv last year because i was working. like i missed most of the season of CSI.
it amuses me that i have a 800x600 resolution, but i make my layouts for somewhere in between 800x600 and 1024x768 because my computer downstairs is that. and i think most peole have 1024x768. i like things big. my computer screen is too small for 1024x768. meh
[<] MOOD - happy COLD
[<] MUSIC - The Sounds - Like a Lady
[<] THINKING - fuck, it's cold
so today while i was walking to where my mom was gonna pick me up the Concord jet flew over me. I've never seen one before, and apparently never will again. it was the last time that they are flying it to Toronto, and they apparently got permission to fly it faster becasue it was the last time, so it was sooo loud. like the sonic boom was just as loud as the engine. so i'm pretty happy that i got to see it. it being a historical moment and all. it sucks that there stopping flying them. i'd pay extra just to go on it. it takes three hours to fly to London. i'd do it.
name: Sarah Louise
age: 18
birthday: November 21home: toronto
nationality: canadian school: York University
status:Singlework: unemployed height:5'2 eye color:brown/topaz hair color:Brown but
dyedBLACK as INK
