[x]MOOD - good
[x]MUSIC - none
[x]READING - Diana Wynne Jones The Lives of Christopher Chant (for like the billionth time)
so i have discovered what i'm gonna spend my summer doing since i'm not going to London like i'd planned. I shall become a movie whore. my new best friend apple.com/trailers, well not really new since it's been around for awhile, but anyways. these are the movies i want to see so far.
there are more, and a bunch of maybes... but i plan to spend alot of time watching movies. thats he great thing about not bring in school in april/may. before i was too busy to go see them, but now i have time. whoo!
anywhoo... this was a waste of an hour watching trailers. i have an exam tomorow and an exam on thursday. have i studies? no. but i do have the essay questions for both, but i havent the faintest idea of how to answer any of them.
bah... my left cheek is all swollen up on the inside... it's my damm wisdom teeth coming in on the bottom and i like bit it like a zillion times yesterday, and now it's all big on the inside and i cant talk or eat.... bah!!
[x]MOOD - happy, tired... am i ever not tired?
[x]MUSIC - Kylie Minogue - Spinning Around
[x]READING - Sophie Kinsella - Can you keep a secret?
now that i actualy have time to read, i shall now have a reading section up there. I started reading again this week :D 'Twas great, i read Girl, Interupted and Lady Cottington's Pressed Fairy Book. i *heart* reading.
So only four more days left. i can't believe it. And as of today, i'm done all my assignments. I had my last presentation today, i think we were ok. we were kinda short, but my TA told one of my group members that we (it's all indivdual marks) didnt get below a B+ ... so a B+ and up is fucking amazing. i hate that class and i hate presentations, and i hate the movie Blade Runner, so out of things i hate, i got a great mark, i hope.
I have an exam on wednesday for film and a exam on thursday for sociology. the sociology questions look hard.we get the questions a week before then they flip a coin in class and we answer one of them. On monday i get my 30% film essay back and i get my presentation mark back. i have a sinking feeling that i'm gonna fail film, which wont be that great of a thing when i go in on April 13th to declare my major and i say 'i want to be in Film, even though i failed' bah .... oh well. bigger fish to fry at the moment.
I was going to talk about this last weekend, but i didnt feel like it. But anyways, last Friday, White Rose declared bankrupcy for the third fucking time. the second time in the almost two years since i've been there. so we close in June (my 2 year aniversary) and the liquidation started on wednesday. it's apparently insane there. people lining up to buy everything at 25% off regular price, even when they could have come before the sale started and got some of the stuff at 75%..... i never said that people were smart.
But i'm gonna have insane hours and make an insane about of money. My brothers been there like almost every day this week for 8 hours each day. i'm only available on weekends, and i'm not gonna change that until i get back form my trip after exams. but this weekend i'm working 8 hours on saturday and 9 1/2 on sunday... the sunday is my own fault. the only way i could make it to work is if i went an hour earlier with emily. i so screwed myself over.
this next month is gonna be odd. i'm so used to it being the summer and having everyone home. but my brothers gonna be working, my sister (who keeps leaving messages on my blog threatning me if i ever talk about her on my blog ... LOOK I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU!!) will be at school and my parents will be at work. my mom will be home sometimes. but shes never had a job since i was little, so it's gonna be a strange summer with the house all alone to me and the Guinea Pig. It's kinda like that now in the evenings. it's usualy me and one other person, as opposed to the 5 or 6 people it sometimes is.
anywhoo.... i'm going to go loaf around my house and read and watch tv... and watch the SATC finale. AHHH!! IT'S ENDING
[x]MOOD - laughing so hard that i can't breathe
[x]MUSIC - my insane laughter
you know when you spend you nights contemplating serious issues that really matter in thw world. I think i have hit the jackpot. Tonight, after Emily and i had some serious discussions on murder at WR and poo, i went on a quest, that quest was to: find out whatever happened to B4-4?
Yes folks, those strange looking spikey haired metasexuals who plagued us a few years ago and who many of us have wiped completely from our minds, have escaped to GREMANY. yes... GERMANY. Where they are producing great music with amazing titiles like "Feel Free (To Say No)" and "Player (You're My Ecstasy". With great music videos that include the gratutious 'dance break' and possible love interest who turns out to be a guy.
Yes..... and with amazing lyrics to match the amazing titiles.
Verse One
Dan Friday night about ten o'clock
In the back seat getting hot
Couldn't wait to get you in bed
Pulled it out and you went ahead
Ryan I said Stop Wait What is that
Steaming up in my Cadillac
Couldn't see and I couldn't breathe
You're about to kill it lady
Pre-Chorus
Ohad Girl you know that I'm the only one that gives a damn
Grow up start to use your brain or find another man
Verse Two
Dan I'm getting deep and I'm getting close
To finding out what u love the most
But I don't know why they're telling you
Sunday night I'll be over you
Ryan Stop Wait Listen Up
Before we lose everything we got
Lot of things you can stimulate
But you're about to kill it lady
Pre-Chorus
Ohad Girl you know that I'm the only one that gives a damn
Grow up start to use your brain or find another man
Chorus
Alle Feel free to
Say no now
Everybody get up and shout it out
Feel free to
Say no now
Don't you give a damn about your life now?
yes...LUCKY emily got to share this whole experience with me, as i delved deeper into the strange german fandom that b4-4 has.. or as they are now called in germany, before four. yes. this is what our conversation mostly consisted of:
Emily - "B4-4's d.o.p.e.!" says:
MY EYEESSSSSSS THEY BURRRN!
Emily - "B4-4's d.o.p.e.!" says:
THEY BURRRRRRRN!
sarah - chrestomanci - says:
"Ohad crys very often, because he is a very sensitve person"
Emily - "B4-4's d.o.p.e.!" says:
AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
sarah - chrestomanci - says:
THEY HAVE ESCAPED TO GERMANY!!! http://www.before-four.de/ RUN RUN RUN!!!
Emily - "B4-4's d.o.p.e.!" says:
OMG....
Emily - "B4-4's d.o.p.e.!" says:
that was horrrrrrible!
weeee.... FUN TIMES!! next time i shall look for another obscure canadian band.. whoo!
ok i lied, i didnt update. I have so much that i want to say, but i just dont feel like writing it out. So instead i'm gonna post a picture... YAY!!!
So, i was talking about this picture to Emily a while ago, and i was going through my pictures to post on my deviantart site, and i rememberd this. I think it's a funny picture becasue everyone seems to have no cares in the world, and dosent seem to notice this airplane heading into the buildings. THe airport is actually there, in the midst of the buildings. you could never get me to land there. It's in San Diego.
[x]MOOD - bah
[x]MUSIC - Ewan McGregor And Alessandro Safina - Your Song
So .... i have loads to say, but since it's like 1:30 am i'm not gonna bother, i'll wait until i feel a little more literate.
But life has been moving slowly. I have a shitload of things to say about Work and school. I'll update later today. Were watching Fight Club in Film class today so i have to go. that movie is fucking amazing.
shameless plug. i put a new layout up on my site and updated a few days ago. i made the layout on Illustrator which i havent used in years.. not since Comm Tech... ok maybe like two years but i forgot how to do everything, but it was easy to remember.
Cristina and i went out yesterday and saw Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. it was fairly good. Cris was a little confused at the begining but so were alot of people b/c she would say 'whats going on?' and i would explain then i would hear like three other people around me explaining it as well. :D but it was good, it waasnt a A to B kind of movie, it began near the ending, which rocked but led to the confusion. I give it two thumbs up.
i kind of am still on hiatus.. but i just printed out my first essay and have no desire at all to start on my second one or to make an outline for my group presentation. Stuff my group.
So... i just thought i would share.. yes sharing if FUN children. i just found this funny as hell. I usually find Shirley Mansons journals funny as hell anyways. But this one made me actually laugh out loud. It's not the whole thing, but it's the funny part. For more go to garbage.com
Talking of water......it's raining again in LA. I swear it has done nothing but rain since we arrived here over a month ago!!!! I think I bring rain clouds with me wherever I go.Nobody ever believes me when i say that but inexplicably....without fail.......wherever I go I hear people say things like:
Well normally it's never anything but sunny here.This kind of rain is highly unusual!
or
The forecast said it was going to be sunny all weekend but gee...I guess they got it wrong!
or (even worse)
Well Shirley.....you must be happy!
Me: (Knowing what is coming next and feeling hateful) Huh?
Stranger: It's raining!!!!
Me:Oh. Oh yeah. Right. ha.
Stranger: (Very self-satisfied with joke) Yeah.....ha ha aha haaaa HAAAAAaaaaaaaAAAAA.Only Happy When it Rains , right?!?!? right? get-it?!?!??!?! HHHHHAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAA
Me: (Strained Smile) ha
NOTE TO EVERYONE WHO IS SEARCHING FOR BRODY DALLE/ARMSTRONG ... THIS IS NOT A DISTILLERS SITE. IT'S MY OWN PERSONAL JOURNAL, SO STOP FUCKING CLICKING ON MY SITE. DOES IT LOOK LIKE A DISTILLERS SITE?
[x]MOOD - working on essay
[x]MUSIC - The Chemical Brothers - The Golden Path (feat. The Flaming Lips)
good head bobbing song this one.. well, if youre a freak like me
do de do do
so, i've decided to take a break from my blog. there really is no point in it all. Everyone is so stressed and busy and snappy, that it's not worth it. i enjoy posting and stuff, but when i have nothing of value to contribute, and when i have things that i want to write about, but dont want the whole world to read, it's not worth it. So i shall be back in a week or two. I have an essay due this friday that i'm like half done, and is going as slow as molasses, so i shall try not to be distracted by all the good things on the internet, like i already have been like 10 times today. And then i have a presentation next friday, that i should like start on or something. Stupid group presentations. and i have another essay due next thursday that i keep on forgetting about. So yeah.. basically i guess this is a hiatius or something. no one really has time for my blog anyways, so i shall actually try to get some work done this week. But later this week i shal put the SATC layout that i made yesterday while i was suposed to be writing my essay up. becasue i know it already ended in the US, but we still have two shows left, so i made one. meh.
:: do you realize that happiness makes you cry?
::
[x]MOOD - thoughtful
[x]MUSIC - Flaming Lips - Do You Realize?
*kicks blog, lights a match then burns it*
i've been thinking alot recently. i talked to Candice about alot on Friday and i talked to my Manager and Head Cashier today, (the head cashier happens to also be my best friend).
[x]MOOD - tired, procastinating .... i feel strange.. not sad.. just misplaced
[x]MUSIC - SPICE GIRLS - VIVA FOREVER ... YESS THE SPICE GIRLS OK!
so... uhh, i loved that Shirley Manson layout so much. Just like i loved that Gwen one before it. i dont know why i put the Shirley one up in the first place, to me it's really old becasue it's about a month old. but i loved it anyways. Now why did i cange it again, like two days later you ask? becasue i'm loosing my mind.
i feel so strange. i'm not out of it, i'm not even very sad, though i do feel like crying sometimes. I just feel misplaced. like my life has just suddenly shifted to the left, and i'm jogging trying to keep up with it. But it seems to want to go places that i dont want to go. I feel all out of sorts with everything in my life. I dont feel the same around any of my friends. i feel like an imposter, like i'm not me. i have nothing really to say to any of them. i just dont feel like talking with anyone... period. yet i keep on trying, and hitting the same roadblock in my mind. i dont know how to deal with my life at all right now. I want school to be done soon. yet i dont want it to end. I was just getting used to it, and making friends in all my classes. i'm never gonna see any of these people ever again in a month.
and then in a month the hell starts. i will have almost a month between the end of school and my exams. i know that i'm not gonna study. i'm in a phase where i dont want to do anything at all. like i have two essays i could be working on. one is due in a week. i have barely started. i have a half formed thesis in my head, not ready to be put into words yet. there are so many things that i should be doing. my list of 'shoulds' is longer than my list of 'doings' ... i should wash my hair right now, i should do my laundry right now or else i will have no pants to wear tomorow. i should write my essay. i should start research for my other essay. i should work on my presentation. i should go apply for a job somewhere. i should go jogging. i should watch what i eat. i should be nicer to people. i should try harder in general.
yet... i sit here.... with nothing.
i will be fine.. dont worry.. dont ask if i'm ok while you sit there and wonder 'should i call the mental institute' ... dont worry, i'm fine, and the doctors have yet to figure out whats wrong with me, so the mental institute shall have to wait.
ignore everything i have just said... i should not post blogs when my mind is cloudy
[x]MOOD - good, tired
[x]MUSIC - Melissa Auf Der Maur - Followed the Waves
so i wimped out. i did not get bangs. maybe one day, i do think that they may look wicked on me. but then again, maybe not. i did have bangs for most of my childhood, i got rid of them around... 3rd greade? maybe later. but i did have them forever.
*insert picture of sarah with bangs*
now, any of you who can tell the difference between me pre hair cut and now, get a big gold star. or a hug. either on.
yay!
so yesterday when i was waiting for Emily in the morning, i was watching MMM and i saw a video that i have never seen other than online. i just thought it was soo cool that they were playing it. i'd never heard of it, and i wouldnt have known about it other than that Gwen Stefani makes a cameo in it. THats possibly why i like the video. it's called 'April Fools' by Rufus Wrainwright or something like that. If you didnt know that it was Gwen, you would not have noticed her at all becasue she looks like this.
i just thought it was cool that i saw the video.
this was a pretty pointless post. i shoudl actually do some work today. i spent the day shopping and stuff. yay!! the mall rocks :D my mommy bought me two pairs or jeans becasue i as always need jeans and the pair i'm wearing now has holes. but yay for my mommy.
[x]MOOD - good :D
[x]MUSIC - Marcy PLayground - Sex and Candy ... does anyone else remember this song?
So today was ok. School as usual. Bio was boring, but i did learn about DNA, so it's all good. then I learned about Realisim in film, and watched a kinda boring movie.
Candice bought me food!! wee.... THANK YOU CANDICE :D i took sooo long getting it becasue i was talking to Tracey L for forever, it was good to see her. i kept on seeing MMHS ppl. i saw of course Em and Candice, then Tracey, Shawn and Lindsay. 'Twas strange.
i dont have much to say. i felt like updating. but i have nothing really to say. bah.
oh, so i'm cutting my hair tomorow, should i get bangs? i've been considering it for awhile. i like them. i did have them when i was little, and i dont know if i want them again. i would probably be getting bangs like Jennifer Aniston has on Friends right now, or like (this) or... well i cant find any good examples. I did kinda want like blunt bangs like that girl, Marissa or something from the O.C. ... but i dont have a good straightner, so it will be hard enough to take care of them.
So.. lots of stuff happening over here in Sarah Land. Biggest thing is i sadly have replaced my best friend.
*tear*
My BEST FRIEND for the past 4 years
My New friend... :D
My dad bought it for me on Friday after i got home from school. I *heart* it, except i'm having separation issues, but my old computers set up in my basement so it's still there. My only problems are of course, some of the programs that i will die without are not here. I was able to get my Kazza Lite and my Photoshop, but I'm still missing my Frontpage. I have Microsoft Office 2000 on a CD but i cant find it, and it's not d/ling. Kathleen has Office XP on a CD, but were not sure if it will work on more than one computer. And the stupid thing is, my computer came with Word and Powerpoint and all that shit, but when i open them, they ask me to Register and enter in my Serial Number... it came with the fucking computer, i dont have a damm serial number. I shall have to wait until my dad gets back until i sort that out. I am not returning my computer though. I had to go through the hell of transfering all my files from my old computer to this one. I'm not going through that again.
I'm ditching this keyboard. It fucking sucks. wayyy too soft. bah.
The weather yesterday was so amazing. when i was walking from the bus, it was 20 degrees! and SUNNY!! it's march! that never happens in Canada. But the weathers been weird this past year.. well past School year at least. Like On my birthday in November, it was like again 20 degrees. that has never happened.
So... i'm off too.... sleep? maybe. bah. i dont really have much to say other than to gush about my new computer and the weather. I've had loads going on, but it's mostly in my head. And other than that, i've had sharp stabbing pains in my stomach like needles, for like 5 days. So thats slowly getting better. Hopefully i will have more to report later.
::edit:: ok, so i did get Frontpage, yay :D .. so heres the layout that i actually made before the Gwen layout. it was missing something, and didnt seem quite right. but as soon as i added that middle picture, it worked. So here it is, and i know you all are thinking, 'God that woman loves the colour pink' i do, but right now in only computer format. My pink jacket was getting to be too much.
[x]MOOD - stomach hurts!! sooo much.. like pins.. ow
[x]MUSIC - Flaming Lips - Do You Realize
[-29 more days, 17 more school days, one essay, one observation, one presentation and four exams-]
today was a strange day.. it started out great, then by the end was shit. but meh.
i had a great bus ride to school. it's never fast, becasue it's rush hour. and i left half an hour late, and was planning on walking in late to my tutorial. yet it only took me 45 mins to get there. thats fucking amazing. notmally over an hour.
and on my first Bus Jenn form MMPS was on my bus, but she needed to study and it was too loud to talk, so i just put my head on my bag. then later, i could hear the girl next to me talking to the guy beside Jenn. then all of a sudden, i hear him say 'Look! she has a No Doubt path on her bag! wake her up, lets talk to her' .. well not exactaly that, but pretty much that. then the girl got off the bus and i 'woke up', and the guy started talking to me. and it was really cool, hes like uber obsessed. the kind of obsessed i would love to be. and the really funny part is i know him. well, i've never talked to him, but he went to Milliken. i dont know if any of you would rememebr him, his name is George, he had blue hair when we were in grade 9.
so that and my tutorial and my lunch with Candice and Angie was cool. the other classes were shit. the bus ride home was total shit. i was gonna bitch about it, but i have something better to bitch about.
Teenagers suck ass. More precisely, High School Children are so imature. Not you Mina, youre not really a 'child' :D
but to give you the bare bones of my story, my sister Kathleen has been friends with these two girls her whole life (we shall call them B & M). one even has the same birthday and they woudl have joint partys. and she has a new friends this year who shes pretty close with as well. (we shall call her L) in her french class L and B sit beside her and were passing a note around. kathleen glimpsed it, and was reading it, and basically it was all about how they hate. like hate with a passion this girl named 'emily'. and they were saying how their friends M hates her too, and how it was funny that 'emily' thought that M and her were best friends when M hates her guts.
and there was some detail, like a comment 'emily' had made, written at the bottom of the note. basically, something kathleen had said. in a nutshell, 'emily' is really kathleen. kathleens pissed. other friends found out becasue Kathleen was crying and really upset, and they went and tried to talk to these three other friends, but they wont say anything, and just get mad.
Kathleens trying to talk to them on MSN and trying to figure out what the fuck happened. and their MSN names are 'LiL B -=->--ALL U DO IS PUT SHYT ON UR NAME WHEN U KNO U CANT COM TUH OURS FACES ND SAY IT--<-=- ' and '_buddy, why don't YOU tell your fucking shit to our face ?' which confuses kathleen even more, becasue what has she ever done to these little immature jealous pricks? nothing! they think that shes copying their style and shit.
and yeah.. i offered to go teach those children a lesson in ettiqute and language, i can cuss their asses off without swearing. and i told her to go find Mina and get her to teach those little hoes a better lesson, becasue if you need someone cused, go to mina. but she said no.
like look at what that little hoe said to Kathleen:
Kathleen: well if u couldn't come out and say u don't like me, then i really don't care
more "
hoe: obviously chuu do, or else chuu wouldn't be running chuur mouth to evry fucking person
Iterate anyone?
hoe: yeahh and the only reason you hear about it is because you're so fucking annoying and you just stand there wishing they'd tell you stuff on their own WILL
hoe:just next time learn to take a stupid hint like supposedly .. if they're trying to have a private convo and it's SO FUCKING OBVIOUS it's private, don't be butting chuur stupid green head in HOW many times did you do that ? w/e miin
does this girl speak english?
hoe about why she didnt say anything to her face, and still hasnt said anything to her face mind you: yeahh i denno why we were so soft to chuu
and miinn chuu can't get the stupidest fucking hints souu many times.
uhhh... soooooo glad all the high school drama is over.. but i still have this urge to go shut the Iterate child down.
oh.. KAREN.. i shall come stalk you in April then, and Mina i shall stalk you as well because i miss you as well :D
[x]MOOD - tired, feel whipped :( .. as usual
[x]MUSIC - Blink 182 - Go
[-32 more days, 19 more school days, one essay, one observations, two presentations and four exams-]
I am becoming a closet fasionsita.. or whatever the hell you want to call it.
for the first time in my life i wish i could wear all the waif like, designer clothes than are all shimmery and slinky and you look amazing in. I watch Sex and the City and i want to go to NY to shop. well and buy designer knockoff bags, becsue who in their right mind can afford the real thing.
And for two months in a row i have bought Vogue. *gasp* me.. sarah. the girl who lives in her jeans and zip up sweaters. who had to buy a pair of dress pants to wear to Emily's party because i didnt own any. or own more than two dress shirts. well, all my clothes areas are lacking in quality and quanity. but thats another story.
i actually care about how i dress and look. now that it's getting warmer, i am actually considering going out jogging... i hate running. it reminds me of Gym class.. kill me now. and all of you, expecially Uma, will remember our long Gym trecks down a major higway in the as a 'warm up' or playing golf in a thunderstorm and having to walk back down that same highway (ok, Kennedy road.. but it has a toll road halfway through it) in that same thunderstorm under many electriacal wires.
waayyyy off topic. why did i remind myself of that?
*banishes all thought of said gym class and said gym teacher out of head*
so.. if i ever get a job, i would like to start dressing more nicely with my possible $$$. i would also like to buy more sweaters and casual wear for the dead of winter say December - Febuary when it's so cold and everyone is so stressed out that no one at york gives a shit how they look. It's sad that i go to a University where people dress up. it's University people! you know the sweats and living off of coffee stage in life.
again.. this whole wandering off topic thingy
*bad sarah*
i cant think straight. need chocolate. no actually need to create a presentation for Wednesday thats worth 20% ... i should like get snapping on that.
bah
i'm very very into my book that i'm reading for SF.. it's called 'The Sparrow' and as emily can attest, very engrosing. who would have thought that i would be into a book about 8 people, 4 of them Jesuit priests going to space. well first i had to have my dad the ex-catholic explain to me what Jesuits are, because as i have said.. i dont know much about religion.
but very good book. i spent hours reading it today.. form like 10:30 till 12:30.. i was so into the bok i didnt notice my phone ringing. i even put it on a low ring.. didnt hear shit.
but the books like 400 pages and i could usually read that fairly fast.. but this just takes forever, i'm only half done.
off to go read ... or something
p.s. Rosemina, Uma, Emily and Karen .. i love you all :D ... you all made me think more and i value anything you ever have to say.
:edit: i deleted some things from this post.. donent matter though
name: Sarah Louise
age: 18
birthday: November 21home: toronto
nationality: canadian school: York University
status:Singlework: unemployed height:5'2 eye color:brown/topaz hair color:Brown but
dyedBLACK as INK
