so I've decided to add Christina Aguilera - Walk Away to my list. it was my fave song from her stripped album and now uhh yeah, i lik it even more. i have never wanted to lick chocolate, or honey, or syrup or just damm LICK something. yeah that was good. us four are so going to a male strip club. its amazing what a guy just unzipping his zipper and pulling down his pants a little will do. or a guy pole dancing. ahhhhhhhhhhh
so yeah, it's very embasasing to say this, i will never mention this again, but this is the third time i have seen justin timberlake live. and never again. he was soo fucking boring! i just wanted to leave. or un and get christina aguilera and make her come back on stage. her concert seemed so long, i didnt want it to stop. his was too long and i wanted it to stop. Christina gets my respect, i wish i could be her, she can sing, can dane, and looks hot dressed as a slut.
oooo i found the perfect fedora hat. but it was $35. *sigh* i want it soooo badly. but the only times i can see myself wearing it would have been last night and next monday.
random note - Rick the Temp is dammmm dhort. hes my height. i'm 5'2. damm. but thats good b/c that means that george must be like 5'6 or something
REVISED TOP 10
1) Queen and David Bowie - Under Pressure
2) R.E.M. - Everybody Hurts
3) Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Under the bridge
4) No Doubt - Tragic Kingdom Album
5) No Doubt - Return of Saturn Album
6) No Doubt - Rock Steady Album
7) Garbage - Parade
8) Fiona Apple - Not an Addict
9) Christina Aguilera - Walk Away
10) ?
so i've been trying to think about my top 10 all time songs. it's harder than it looks because i ten to listen to some songs for awhile, then i get sick of them and i never want to hear them again. but i want these songs to be the 10 i will listen to until i die, that i would take to a desert island with me etc etc. so here they are so far. oh and not in any order.
1) Queen and David Bowie - Under Pressure
2) R.E.M. - Everybody Hurts
3) Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Under the bridge
4) No Doubt - Happy Now?
5) No Doubt - New
6) No Doubt - Running
7) Garbage - Parade
8) Fiona Apple - Not an Addict
9) ?
10) ?
i need two more songs. there are so many that i could put in those two spots, and none of them seem right. I'm thinking of putting ND - Magics in the Makeup, but i think instead of putting more ND songs i should just say i'd take the whole albums with m, because they all kick ass.
So i'm waiting for Uma and Mina to come over, i havent seen mina in FOREVER. it'il be kick ass to see her. were going to the justin timberlake/christina aguilera concert. don't ask. i know its' odd for me of all people, but i was once a Nsync fan, i know scary eh? <------ LOOK CANADIAN MOMENT anyways, yeah were going to Queen street first, that way i can stalk george first.
weee now i have music, Michelle Branch - 'happy now?'
"Can you look me in the eye, and tell me that you're happy now?"
So the DRAMA surrounding getting to the concert tomorow is hilarious. but i seem to have figured it out, i'm just waiting for Uma to call me tomorow so that we can confirm everything.
Bob Hope died. Sad
ha, i wouldn't want to be in Montreal right now. RIOTING, and to think i was planning on going next weekend, well that fell through when i realized that no on really cared. i just want to leave the city and go somewhere that it NOT TORONTO. like my mom and sister got to go to Portugal, Cristina gets to go to Belgium and Paris (I'm gonna kill her and take over as her, then when i gt to Paris i'm gonna run away and live there - I WANT TO GO TO PARIS) Lucky Bum. anyways, i want to go somewhere, and i want to go somewhere now dammit!! wait, i already went to LA this year, but that was in Febuary, i need to go out of North America. Wait, i went to central america, i went to Mexico for like 5 hours. dammit. I NEED TO GO TO ENGLAND AND FIND ME A NICE BRITISH BOY
yes i am psycho
oooo and my parinoia, the one that uma and i talk about today, i've talked about it here before. the one where i think all my friends go out without me, its true.
I'm still trying to figure out which mental disorder i have other than depression. I'm sooo terrified of people, and large crowds make me sooo nervous, and people touching me makes me jumpy as hell. like yesterday i had a huge panic attack because i was at the airport waiting for my mom, and there were like 100 people waiting for the arrivals, and i freaked. my brother thought i was just being stupid. i wanted to cry soo much. i just wanted to find a corner away from everyone and curl into a little ball. then this littl kid was playing behind me and he kept on banging into be and it made me want to scream everytime, i wanted to rip that childs head off. just because he was touching me. i don't like being touched, and i don't like kids. eeep. i'm screwed. oh well
tomorow the concert and Quen street. maybe i will find george and make him be my friend. ahhh he rocks, and he's so hot.
[<] MOOD - sick, tired but happy
[<] MUSIC - No Doubt - Don't speak (Live from Tragic Kingdom Video)
EEEE hapy. i can't believe that i found this video. they don't make it anymore but i'v been looking in every music store that i went in. but i found it for $10 in a used bookstore in Waterloo. kick ass!!
Mennonites and white people scare me
wait i'm white
damm
oh well, they still do
[<] MOOD - stomach ache
[<] MUSIC - Maroon 5 - Harder to Breathe
i feel like i have done absolutley nothing this week. i worked twice, went on a long busride to york, and did more nothing. the only people i have really spent time with are my family and candice. i miss cristina. at least she phones me. i hate it when people say, 'oh i'll call you and we'll do something tomorow' it never happens.
ANYWAYS MOVING ON
yeah University is fucking expensive. my cheapest course is like $450 and my most expensice is $1450... OHMYGOD!!! it better be a fucking good course and i better as hell pass it!!! i think it's one of my science fiction courses so i should be ok. it's gonna cost like almost $5000 just the tuition. i feel bad for my dad. i wish he would let me pay, but i can't afford it. he has to pay for both me and my bother, thats like $10 000, and we don't have that much money to start with. eeeep
yeah i'm really happy that i joined the college that emily's in. bethune kicks ass. the stuff we are doing on frosh week is amazing. you have to pay $60 but its woth it. and for $15 more you get a t-shirt, pants, a hat, a pag, a water bottle and a lanyard. thats cool. i'm paying the extra. the schedule is cool. i'll talk more on that later, but it rocks!!
i came here to talk about something, but i can't remember now.... hmmmm.... oh well
Oi!! I'm so tired. i tried avoiding work's phone calls, but the sad part about not having caller ID means that there is a chance that they can ctach you. so after avoiding their phone calls, they finally caught me when i though it was safe. i figured that the closing shift starts at 4:30, they wont call me after that. they called me at 5. *sigh* they were having a 'everything 40% off sale' b/c the nursery across the street was. it made my life hell. sooooo fucking busy. and people wouldn't get the hint to leave the store. after we closed, i walked around telling people that the cashiers were closing in 5 mins and the better hurry up and crap like that. then after wed been closed for like half an hour, and there were still a TON of people in the store i started making bitchy anouncements saying people better leave NOW. hehehe it was fun. they seriously wouldnt leave!! it was so busy. but we made a ton of money. and i think the store manager tracey likes me, she was beaing so nice to me at work and on the phone. then when she phoned to ask how things were Angela was seriously talking me up, making me seem like a god. it was pretty cool. yeah sooo busy, so tireing. my leg hurts. i think i tore something. eeeh.
york tomorow w/ canice. who wants to be that she gets lost on the way to my house??
[<] MOOD - sleepy
[<] MUSIC - Evanescence - going under (video)
So the Harminder scandal at White Rose continues
his wife is still phoneing everyshift and now she saying "i'm blah blah blah from Visa i need to talk to Harminder" why the fuck would visa call him at work? dumb dumb. then shes getting all pissed when we say hes not here, or can we take a message. Angela hung up on her so many times. then she called and i picked up and she didnt even say hi, she was like 'i want to speak to your manager NOW'. i could hear the manage danielle on the phone in the other room going, 'i'm soory, but i can take a message for you. you can't talk to him' hahaha. and everytime we *69 her we get 'its a private #' the store manager tracey wants to block her number b/c it's pissing us off.
anyways, cristina has missed so much in the week that she's been away. Steve quit b/c the demoted him and cut his pay. Cristina and i get to go to Angelas wedding, and help her out by watching all the bratty kids. oooo and i have no life b/c i've spent the last couple days doing nothing. but thats ok.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Honey the Devil Guinea Pig really is a devil. i used to hate her but in the last couple days i thought that she liked me and she played with me etc. but yester day she gnawed on my arm twice. she drew BLOOD!! shes a vegitarian! yet she gnawed at both of my arms. it fuking hurt! i almost dropped her.
[<] MOOD - bored
[<] MUSIC - birds chirping outside - SHUT UP
i seem to give up easily on things, or get bored easily
i started sorting my dad's wood things for the SF convention, then i got bored and gave up
then i started reading, then i got bored and gave up
then i started watching tv, i got bored and gave up
then i started looking up the tv show 'Worst Witch' on the intrnet, because i had just watched it and was confused
now i'm done that and now surfing the internet, but i'm bored and i'm gonna give up that too. However, my dad is now home so i'm not all alone anymore
I HATE BEING ALONE
god, it seems that i spend everyday alone now. my dads at work, my brothers at work or out and my mom and sister are in portugal. my life dosen't really start until 5 or 6. Thats when people come home, or my friends decide to go out. we never go out during the day, always at night. i don't know why. the only person who goes out during the day is cristina and shes at a cottage until saturday or something. it seems that i'm going to have a very boring week ahead of me. I need something inexpensive thats alot of fun to do. under $10. thats ablot all i can afford. i need money.
hehehee i'm sure that took up alot of space and pissed people off, i know i hate it when people fill their blogs with meaningless crap. Well HA!, it's my turn! Waffy at justagirl.net rules, so go visit and do her quizzes
Friday - we didn't go clubbing. I don't want to say anything negative about the whole 'situation' but it was not well planned. i waited in cristinas car from 8:30 - 10 until we finally left. then we went out and got drinks. we keep on going to all these chinese drink places that serve really expensive drinks. it's like 5 bucks for just some blended syrup and ice. it's crazy.
Saturday - after Clare conned me into working 11 - 7 instead of 10 - 3 i had a fucking long day. i was sooo tired. but i got to work with candice until 4 and angela the whole time. i felt so bad for angela, she had some major issues to deal with this shift. And sadly the carrout was justin. *sigh* he kept on trying to talk. i really don't want to go out with him, nut i think hes got the hint.
i went to the Ontario Renisance festival. sadly it rained so i had to leave early but it was pretty good. i'll try to take candice next time i got. i think she'd like it, even though it's a very white thing, i think she'd enjoy it.
OOOO I've warped kathleens Guinea pig to love me. it now likes me soo much, except it bit me just now. And speaking of Kathleen, she stole more things from my room and i had to go find them again, luckully she wont be back from portugal for a week so i can rummage through her room and find more of my stuff.
in a bored mood
i was home all day alone, then my dad came home, then left and now i'm all alone again
i need my brother to come home so we can go get dinner... mmmmmm wendys
i might be going clubbing tonight
don't really want to though
i dunno why, i just don't
i do want to but i don't
whatever
we'll see what happens
[<] MOOD - sick, nauseous
[<] MUSIC - "Egos & Icons - Destiny's Child" on tv
feel soooooooo sick
stupid Science Cnter
we saw this movie, kinda like imax, but half a circle all around you
made me so dizzy and sick
i even sat dowb outside for awhile, and i havent dont anything since, but i feel sooooo sick
my mom and sister just left for portugal
i hope theyre ok, that everything is cool and nothing bad happens
[<] MOOD - hot
[<] MUSIC - Appleton - Blow My Mind & Police and Firetruck sirens (ooooo something bad is happening)
It's amazing how catchy some songs can be. I only seem to have three artists on my playlist at the moment. Danni Minogue (Kylies little sister) Appleton (people from All Saints) and Yeah Yeah Yeah's. It's an odd mix. Listen to some of it. I recomend:
Danni Minogue - Put The Needle On It
Danni Minogue - I begin to wonder
Appleton - Blow My Mind
Appleton - Dont Worry
Appleton - Fantasy
yeah yeah yeahs - black tonuge
yeah yeah yeahs - Pin
yeah yeah yeahs - mystery girl
yeah yeah yeahs - Art Star
[<] MOOD - pissed, annoyed
[<] MUSIC - REM - Everybody Hurts & Finger Eleven - Good Times
Ooooooooo WR gosip!!
SO at WR, there is this fucking anoying guy named Harminder, i swear he pisses me off, he just bugs me and i have no reason to hate him like i do. but anyways, tonight he kept on getting phone calls. either anglea, care or me would pick up the phone, page him and then like 5 minutes later he would get another phone call. they were all from the same woman. then angela came up to me and was like Harminder told her not to page him if he got any personal calls. he then came and told me this. i thought this was odd. but fucking retarded. he can't do his own dirty work so he wants us to. so of course for like the 10th time tonight this woman phones and everyone was busy so i had to answer i was like 'i'm sorry he dosent want any personal calls' and she starts going, 'i'm his wife, i'm not a girlfriend or anything. i should be able to talk to him. i just need to talk to him. everytime i phone, i keep on getting disconnected. i'm calling from the states, i want to talk to him so i can organize a trip up to see him.'
FUCKING BASTARD
he was hanging up on her, avoiding her calls, and he expects me to go, 'no sorry bitch, you can't talk to your fucking husband.' i know it's not my place and i don't know the story, but if you don't want to talk to someone don't give out your numer or tell them you don't want to talk to them. WHAT A WIMP!!!!
i was so pissed. so i made his life worse. his wife was really upset, and gatting bitchy at me for not letting her talk to him, believe me, i would have paged him, but he was even ignoring pages for customers phone calls. so she asked me what his schedule was so i told her. i hope he fucking rots, DO YOUR OWN FUCKING DIRTY WORK, DON'T MAKE OTHERS DO IT FOR YOU
I have spent the last four days doing NOTHING
i don't normally phone people except for candice, but i havent phoned anyone in four days, and no one phoned me
i feel so alone, i want to go out but me being the psychotic person that i am i don't want to phone anyone, and then i keep on thnking that they are all having a kick ass time without me. i know that i'm just crazy, and i like to let my imagination get the better of me. but still.
like just now i was thinking i want to go see 'pirates of the carabiean' (oh i can't spell for shit), and i was just thinking, i want to phone uma up and ask her to go see it with me. but then i think that uma has probably seen it already and wont want to see it w/ me. that and i hav no way to get there w/o asking my parent for a ride. ***SIGH***
i have to work today =( it sucks ass but oh well, it's with angela who i <3
lastnight i watched a Bio on MuchMoreMusic about Queen, well it was really about Freddie Mercury and three other guys, they barely talked about the others, they all just talked about Freddie. it was sad, but amazing what they accomplished. i listened to Queen before i went to bed, they rock.
On a sidenote to Queen, Freddie Mercury had really bad teeth. it bugged me. i don't know why. i think i'm a teeth person, i like nice teeth. i used to have the shittiest teeth, then came the braces.
SEE I'M A PSYCHO. hehehe. who the hell talks about teeth! i swear i'm loosing it.
OHMYGOD!!! I LEARNED HOW TO DO SOMETHING!!!
ok well, candice told me how to and then it was just copying and pasteing, but still, lookie, if it actually worked i should have a comment section!! yay! lets all leave pointless comments on my blog!
i hate it when i sleep in
i never sleep in, yet today my alarm didnt go off so i woke up at 9:50, when i start work at 10 and it takes 10 minutes to get to work and youre suposed to be there at least 10 minutes in advance to the begining of your shift... so i have never gotten ready so fast
it was funny though because my brother was working with me, the same shift and he knew that i had to be awake but he never even thought about checking if i was up..... well DUH
It's been a tireing few days
Friday i went downtown to the eaton's center, for a little subarbinate like me, taking the bus and the subway and then going to a big mall and streets with lots of people is scary, lol
candice and i had fun, except that it rained and we didnt get to go shopping on Queen street which is always kick ass
yesterday i worked then we all went out and played pool, i suck ass
then went out and got chinese food and bubble tea
it was ok, my stomach hurt so i wasn't that into it
i stunk like smoke which i HATE
OHMYGOD, this fucking punk ass stupid fob at work tried to take my pen, which i know that it's just a pen, but he took it and was like, it's mine. stupid punk. then later he tried to tell me off saying that i wasn't doing my job. HELLO!! i've been there over a year, i think i know how to do my job. this guy has an attitude problem, fucking fob, he's tried to tell senior people off too. he has now moved up on my list of people i want to get fired, now it's fucking fob kevin, then lazy smartass jason, then nikki, then everyone else=) ok maybe not everyone else.
Monkeys kick ass
i went to the zoo today
it was ok, it got pretty tired real fast
i wanted to leave but we had to see 'just one more animal'
meh whatever, it was probably b/c i was tired and in a odd mood
tomorow candice and i are going downtown weeeeeeee
yes the little suburbanite that i am going downtown is cool and scary
hahaha milliken sucks to live in
sooo damm boring, only houses and such
thats ok
oh uma if you are reading this I LOVE YOU
hehehe just because you kick ass as a friend and stuck with me through the zoo=)
I am so scared about going to University.
I went to York today and it's so fucking HUGE
registering to soooooo damm long. i went for 12:30 and got home at 4. it took me soo damm long, i changed my schedule so many times. but i got the film course i wanted. and i got the funniest course in the world. THE BIOLOGY OF SEX. that cracks me up. it drives my mom crazy because i am walking around refering to my course as 'my sex course' hehehehe it's funny.
wow i did NOTHING today. i didnt even sit around and watch tv, i don't really know where the whole day went.
Yesterday i got to see how rich people live. my uncle the millionaire(please adopt me) bought a new house and they are literaly ripping it apart and building a new house. no room is going to stay the same. the house is in a cool location. its on the scarborough bluffs, which are literaly cliffs that lead to lake ontario. and there is this huge part of forest leading to the bluffs behind his house, and it's his property. i would have loved to have that as a kid. that would have kicked ass, i would have run wild.
tomorow is my york university regestration. i get to pick all my courses. i'm kinds scared, ahhhhh i'm growing up!! kill me now!!
today was kinda cool. it started out with work. i actually had fun doing White Rose related work. we were at this 'Art in the Park' thingy at this creepy little community that just screams at me 'we so want to become pleacantville USA', but anyways, WR was sponsering it so that meant that Em, Cris and Danielle had to go facepaint and do crafts with kids. all day. in burning hot weather. i got a sunburn. and paint all over my clothes and my arms. i don't ever want kids.
but heres the odd part of the day. when Em and i drove back to WR to drop off some supplies, the carryout who helped us was Justin. i havent seen him in forever, and i know that i don't really like him. i don't think i ever did, it's these things called horemones you see. anyways, as usual i hugged justin as we were leaving and emily stops and invites him out with us tonight. i dindt think he would come, he phoned me and said he would if he had time. and of course he didnt which was good because i don't want him to think that i like him, which emily and cris now think i do. they don't seen to understand my whole, i don't like skinny guys thing. so he didnt come and that was that.
but then, i went downstairs a while after i came home, leaving my phone upstairs because no one ever phones me. and guess what, he phones me. so after it woke my sister up, i talked to him for like an hour. i don't like talking to people, especially guys on the phone, too many bad memories and habits. but the sweetest thing was that he went to the place where we had been, and went looking for us and then he stood in an empty parking lot for an hour on a payphone talking to me.
crap
thats sweet, but i really have no feelings other than friendship for him. he said to phone him if were doing anything else. i hate phoning people, i don't like doing it at all, phones are evil.
meh, than my mom was like, 'who were you on the phone with? do you have a boyfriend?' i know she means well but it's fucking anoying.
yeah, i don't like him, but i've really been leading him on recently, massivley flirting with him. i feel like shit for it, but my horemones are saying, 'heres someone who likes you, take advantage of it'. i hate myself for doing that. that and we so don't click, our friends and lives and futures and even personalities to an extent. the only thing we really have in common is we work at the same shithole.
name: Sarah Louise
age: 18
birthday: November 21home: toronto
nationality: canadian school: York University
status:Singlework: unemployed height:5'2 eye color:brown/topaz hair color:Brown but
dyedBLACK as INK
