I liked the last one. But it felt so childish. Also, it was dark and gothic, and i needed something bright and happy. And much as I love black layouts, they look so unprofessional. Which sucks ass, becasue black layouts rock. Oh well.
So this layout is from pictures i took last Febuary when i was in California. These specific ones were taken on venice beach. i love the surfer dude one. i have made like three layouts featuring him. but this is the first one to go up. and i wish i had nice pictures of me on the beach, but alas, i dont. i have no nice pictures of me on that trip at all. it's strange. same as i have no nice pictures of me with pink hair. oh well.
oh yeah, this layout is also featuring my lovley feet. i hate my feet sooo much. and why i chose to put them in a layout, i dont know.
as to my last post. i kinda cracked. i need to rant. i'm happy that some of you guys posted comments. THANKS. But i also feel really really bad after reading Lizas comment. I'm sorry that you feel that way. I never wanted you to feel that way. i dont know if you will ever read this, but you are one of my few friends right now. i only see three people a week, and you happen to be one of them. i just feel bad.
so my sister got a new computer today. my dad gave each of us a new computer when we graduated high school, and she just got hers. it's windows xp, has a burner, and many many more things that my little computer dosent have. this sucks. much as ai love my computer and we are good friends. i've had it for four years. it will be four years on dec 31st (hahaha i got my computer on dec 31st 1999 ... hahaha Y2K hahhaha losers who thought that would happen) and it's just too slow, and has too little space etc. i want one of the newer HP ones with the burners and DVD players. i know that if i get a new one it will be with a DVD player, i will not settle for less. But computers are sooo fucking expensive. hmm maybe i should just like buy a new computer, not a package w/ moniter, printer etc. i already have all that stuff. but a new computer would have better ones. my sister computer is really good. and the printer she got is one of those photocopier/scanner/printer deals. i think i may have to steal it in the middle of the night.
but it would either be a new computer or a trip to europe. i also have to pay for books next year. i do have loads of money in the bank, but i need those to pay for next year, and i really really want to go to europe in the spring. arrrgh... it dosent help that i'm working so few shifts. and i hate my job. and i dont want to make the effort to find a new one, becasue i hate working so so so much. i am not looking forward to spending the rest of my life working.
so should i buy a new computer?? eventually??
So wednesday i'm doing all my Christmas shopping/Birthday shopping.. what the hell should i get my Dad for christmas??? Arrgh, so difficult to shop for.
:: i'm so sorry that i've fallen, help me up, lets keep on running
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[>]MOOD - GREAT
[>]MUSIC - No Doubt - Running (Demo Version)
[>] THINKING -
so yesterday when we were driving home I got Em to turn the Clay cd off and Candice wanted to listen to NxD - Rock Steady, and we had a kickin amazing time. it was so cool to see two of my best friends just totaly enjoy one of my fave cd and fave bands.. it was cool.... they didnt want to give the cd back
funny story. so yesterday it was pouring rain.. actually that has nothing to do with the story, but anywhoo, Em candice and i were going to the mall after school and Em was like 'hey maybe i should get gas' it was pretty cheap too at 62.5 or something like that... so trafic is really busy etc and we pull up to an esso station and as soon as we change lanes, the gas meter suddenly changes to 69.9... so weve screwed ourselves over by changing lanes, but it was ok... but it was just so funny becasue Em and i were yelling and pointing at the gas meter going 'what the fuck! why did it do that! thats no fair!' we probably looked really stupid. for some reason we found this hilarious. and it reminded us of one time when em and i were driving to school again in th pouring rain, that was raining sideways and was shit rain, we pulled up to the parking lot at york and she had her window open and was waving her electronic keycard trying to get the gate open and she kept on waving it, and the rain was coming in the car, soaking Emily and soaking me and all the while she didnt notice that the gate had opened so i start screaming 'IT'S OPEN! It'S OPEN!' and she s like '"WHAT! I CAN'T HEAR YOU! WHAT!' so i repeated the 'IT'S OPEN!' bit and she still didnt hear me... so finally she noticed that the gate was open so we went and parked. and we sat there soaking wet, laughing our heads off for like 10 minutes, and still to this day whenever it is raining and we drive to school we bring the 'It's Open!' story up and sit there laughing. Also, i lost my voice from yelling at her and then got sick for like a week. yeah. you didnt really need to know that.
i felt like updating this blog soooo much on thursday.. but then i got really pissed and really sad over the blog. i am like emotionally attatched to it. i always have this mental part of me where i need to be acknowledged by my peers. i always was the girl ignored in the back row, the one taht everyone used to get things, who no one ever really liked or cared about. i was dispensible. but now i actually have friends on levels that i have never had friends on. but i'm still the same way. throughout my whole life, no one ever phoned me, no one ever invited me to go out with them. my summers were usually spent by myself reading. thats why i still live in a imaginary world in my head, my imaginary world has always loved me. basically what i'm trying to say is that i am very emotional and need emotional reassurance that my friends still actually like me and still want to be friends with me. i said before that i dont care it people post comments, and i dont care if no one phones me or no one invites me to do things, or if no one wants to be my friend. but i realized that i really do need it all. i updated on wednesday and it was a meaningless post, no life altering appifinys or anything, but i went back on thursday night and no comments. and i was like whatever.. i dont care anymore, but then i realized that 25 peopple had visited my site, some of them multiple times. and i cracked. i had this long rant to emily about it all. i realized that i am still the little depressed 9 year old who gets sent to shrinks becasue she is building up emotional walls around herself and cutting herself out of the world. i still am that girl. i have created a whole other world for myself in my head, and i find myself having to turn to it more and more when i get depressed and life is shit. and that is more an more recently. i just want people to like me. to say hi every so often. to tell me that they care. even if they dont know me. i know that there are people visiting this site who have never met me. just say hi.
i have alot of issues in my life that i need to sort out. and right now i'm not doing a great job of it. i need to make new friends. to spend time with people other than my select gruop of friends who i ahve been hanging out with for the last five years. i know i can do it. i've done it before. i'm not friends with most of the people from grade school, mostly becasue milliken p.s sucked. and i'm not friends with alot of the people from high school, again becasue milliken h.s. sucked. so i am attempting to make new friends. i am trying. i really am.
like on thursday, i actually talked to people from my tutorial before my tutorial, and during my tutoraial and then after my tutorial a group of us went and studied for like 3 hours. it was good for me both friends wise and studying wise. and then yesterday i saw a guy (lets call him Nate b/c i keep on calling him Nathaniel by mistake, his name is similar to that) duruing my lunch period and i said hi and didnt thik much of it. then he came over and hung with Em and i, then we went to class. and i now have like a small group of people who actually like me. who actually want to hang out with me. who can joke around with me and tell me things. like we had to make groups for a group project and instead of sitting waiting for someone to sctually want me to be in a group, for someone to decide to sccept me into their lives, i am actually in a group with people who like me and want to work with me.
i wish i was a year older. FUCKING GOVERNMENT!! MAKE ME GO TO UNIVERSITY WHEN I'M ONLY 17!! becasue if i was older i could go out with all my new 'friends'. i still dont feel accepted by them. they all go out clubbing, or to pub night. and i go home and watch tv or do nothing. the last time i went 'out' was my birthday. and before that it was emilys birthday. and before that it was like the weekend of shauns birthday.. see a pattern here ??
wow. i got off topic. and still no ones gonna comment. but whatever. i am again trying not to care. and i didnt mean for this to turn into a rant about commenting... i really didnt. i will try not to mention it again, and actually put meaningfull posts up. i guess this was meaningfull. all of you who thought you know me are now running away from me becasue you think i'm a freak, but thats ok.
hahaha. after saying no one phones me, my cell phone just ran. i almost had a heart attack. like that would have been freaky if someone phoned me to talk after saying all that shit. but it was just my dad. calling to ask if he should buy something for my brothers birthday. go figure.
ahhhh. my mom is playing Christmas Opera music. *turns volume of own music wayyyy up and runs for the hills*
[>]MOOD - tired, stressed
[>]MUSIC - my heater warming my room up.... mmmmm warmth... mmmm
[>] THINKING - why am i cold and hot at the same time?
why did i take sociology again?? really.. what the fuck was i on when i registered?
i have an exam tomorw.. and i havent studied... i've done a little bit of the readings that i need to do in order to answer some of the questions, but i can't make the effort. i just hope that i pass... even if i get the same mark that i got last time, 55% i wont be sad. i'll be happy that i passed.. argh.
ok list of things to do when exams are over on the 5th -
- clean room!!! it's a shithole.. i dont know how i live here becasue i just dump everything on the floor, i have no time to clean
- fold laundry, no wait i have to do that before exams, i just washed it... hmmm maybe i can make my mom do it, no. she has no time with the new job and all
- make a new layout for this journal
- make a new layout for my non existant site... in place of the simple temporary layout that has been up since june or july
- buy mom and brother birthday presents. i have that covered. all i have my moms birthday and christmas all picked out, and all i have to do is ask jacob what two cds he wants. we gave up on surprising each other years ago. we usually go to the store together and pick our presents out for each other together
- buy Candice a Birthday present.. i have a month though
- i have decided that since i am broke, the only people who will be getting christmas presents are my mom, dad, brother, sister, Candice, Cristina and Emily, so buy presents
- read book for SF
- read book for SF that i should have read in October
- finish watching season two of sex and the city and watch season three and four
- steal season three and four from emily
- stop procastinating
- dye hair pink again
- start to do more crunches.. maybe i shoudl buy a Yoga video.. hmmmm
- be nice to family
- make the lists that i was going to make on my birthday about the past year.. well get them out of my head and onto the computer
- stop making lists
yeah.... so maybe i should study or something? shoot me
la de da da
oh i downloaded a video from the audience of Gwen and Gavin preforming the Sweetest Thing at the Hammerstine Ballroom last year.. yeah it is really cute.. excpet that he is like dancing or something related to dancing.... so so so funny go HERE if you want to join in the fun
::edit:: whoo!!! 1001 hits since mid September....!! and i was the one in the 1001... go me!
they are probably mostly me and candice =)
yep.. just checked... candice is 21% of my hits.. i am only 3%.. hahaha.. i have a STALKER
[>]MOOD - GREAt but pissed
[>]MUSIC - NO DOUBT - ROCK STEADY LIVE - Sunday Morning
[>]THINKING - i <3 NXD
Best Buy and HMV fucking SUCK ASS!!!
Best Buy only had the NXD Singles collection, No Rock Steady DVD and no Boom Box box set
HMV had the CD and DVD but alas no Boom box box set
HMV said that i have to wait until December 2nd until they get it in... FUCK THAT!! it comes out TODAY! if you hav the other fucking stuff then why the hell dont you have the Boom Box??? dammiit
But NXD Rock Steady Live it AMAZING so far! i want to see them live again! i should sooo be studying for my exam on thursday that i havent studied for, or i should finish my lab due tomorow that i havent started much of
but no... i have to watch this
The Distillers new cd ROCKS!!! it's Amazing! GOOD JOB
oh i did write a whole post yesterday, it was a nice long rant but becasue i was at school and on a Mac so blogger looked really really different, i deleted it instead of posting it
but it was a bitchfest at how i know you are all visiting, and that it dosent take much effort to post a comment and say 'hi' every so often... THANK YOU CANDICE..... most of you dont post because you arnt interested in what i'm talking about, or you dont care, or you dont know what i'm talking about, but i ont update becasue i dont see a reason when no one posts comments, it makes me think that no one cares. whatever... so i've decided not to care.... post or dont post... i don't care anymore
oo i also wote yesterday about how this week is Angelas last week at WR.. i'm going to miss her
fun fun
::edit:: 1024pm
my makeups all off, who am i? the magic's in the makeup, who am i?
[>]MOOD - good, cold, tired, the norm
[>]MUSIC - No Doubt - Magic's in the Makeup (live acoustic)
[>] THINKING -
so i watched the entire NxD - Rock Steady Live dvd.. and lets just say i started at 2 and finished at 5:30..... that suckers long!! but GOOD!
the concert was amazing! but it made me so happy that i saw them at a club as opposed to the stadium tour, but the stadium tour would have been NxD, Garbage and the Distillers, three of my fave bands so that would have been amazing too, but they didnt come to canada and it's long over so whatever, i missed my chance.
but they are AMAZING live... i can't describe it other than AMAZING... and some parts gave me chills.. i know that sounds corny and such, but it did so there
other than that they are amazing live, i also noticed that they drink ALOTon stage... like more than alot. and when i was watching the backstage stuff, they were drinking alot before the show too.. well mostly Tony and Tom.. i didnt see Gwen drink and Adrian was drinking a beer on stage... but it was so funny becasue they got off the stage and tony was like 'shit, i am so drunk.' for some reason i found the whole thing really funny.
and there is all this backstage stuff and other little features on the band that are really funny and good. they had a whole thing on Gwen and the Pussycat dolls. and the Tony Pirate thing was funny, you just have to see it to understand.
i like the dvd, except it gave me a whole different perspective on the band. thats not a bad thing, but now i see them differently and it's strange. they now seem like an entirely different band and different people, expecialy gwen... and i dont know why. i know it's just me.... i also think i'm just a little bit too obsessed. so now i dont feel as obsessed anymore.
oh and Gwen has such a nice house.. it's so pretty! it looks like a spanish style house, if i lived in california i would so want a house like that. and her closet.. *gasp* ... if only........
i finished my bio lab.. it's total SHIT! but i'm handing it in anyways.. if i dont get good, then i dont get good. i dont really care. it's only 5%.
and i havent even started studying for my exam. i was going to do that now, but i cant seem to make myself do it. i dont know, it's just strange. i just dont want to study. i have the two questions, i know what to study for, my exam is on thursday which is really really soon!! and yet, i just cant make myself study. it's bad. i dont really care and this exam is worth 10%... so if i fail its ok becasue i have like two more exams left. but i got 55% on the last sociology exam. which is not good. how hight of a final grade do i need to get the credits?? and do they put the grade on the transcript or does it just say pass or fail? whatever. i hope i pass. i need to study becasue as usual i dont know what's going on, i need to do the readings again and try to understand whatever the hell this class means. argh. ok i will make one effort today. i will print out one of the articles that is in one of the posible questions.
so i worked today.. it was.. ok? i havent worked in to weeks and then i'm not going to work for two more weeks... i'm scared for my bank account.
tim is back. he has dreads now.
tim is hot.
so no. i wasnt drunk.. but soo tired, and in a good mood. and i had something to drink but i was just at tipsy. i dont know if i could ever get drunk, purposely. b/c i was drinking on purpose last night. i have never had more than one glass of something, so i wanted to try.. so i did. i had three of whatever i made.. my mom made the first one for me. it was good.
then i got dizzy.
and i am still dizzy, but thats probably becasue i havent eaten anything all day except for the cookies cristina got me. she was so cute with her present. first she gave me a box. then she gave me a think that looked like it was roses, but when i opened it it was rose cookies. like flower stems with cookies stuck on the top. and not just any cookies, but the cookies from Monsiour Felix and Mr Noron.. those are fucking expensive and sooo good.
then she hade this little pillow with our pictures on it that said best friends forever... sooo cute!!
everyone gave me GREAT presents.. GOOD JOB! i never really get that much presents, like my family didnt get me much. but all my friends gave me kick ass things, thank you!!! OOO and Liza gave me another babybluespikes, so now i have two. except the new ones are sparkly. whoo!!!!
so i'm tired... i'll talk more later/tomorow/soon... i have work to do.. except FUCKING yorku.ca WONT LET ME.. so now i cant do my bio lab at home.. i have to do it on monday which means stealing candices york login because i'm a loser and dont have one, and waisting my time and doing it at home, when i already found the articles at home, but cant open them up becasue york is fucked and WONT LET ME!! argh... fuckers
WR employee appreacition night tonight.. goodie*sarcasam*.. i may go
[>]MOOD - hungry, legal
[>]MUSIC - Evanesence - hello
[>]THINKING - i can do do......
so yes, i am now legal
go me
go Liza
i can now do.... nothing much other than have s e x !! whoo!! oh wait.. i'm single.. nevermind
i have a long list of things in my head that i want to post about the last year etc.. but i'm too stressed right now to do it... becasue i cant find emily.. i need my damm esay from her now, so i can print it and go to bed.
so i slept alot today
i slept for an hour in MC because i forgot my tutorial was cancelled so i slep for an hour, which is kinda scary b/c people so could have taken my stuff
then i slept for most of my SF tutorial.. em and i had a nice nap period... becasue we were watching the stupidest most comfusing movie EVER
w h a t t h e f u c k i s 2001: a space odesey about??!!!
it was DUMB!! my dad explained it to me though... trust me the explination was dumb too!!
so i'll post more tomorow.. when i am avctually 18, so after 1pm
look!! no ones ever made me anything.. candice i love you!!
tee hee hee
i kept my bet w/ emily.. the tony layout stayed up until my birthday! whoo!!!
it's midnight, new layout time!!!!! yay!
[>]MOOD - tired, good, meh, fat
[>]MUSIC - Pink - God is a DJ
[>]THINKING - why do i have shapr pains in my stomach constantly?
*does a celebration dance*
guess what i got on last weeks Bio Lab??
Guess
Guess
no?
ok FUCKING PERFECT... yes... I Sarah Louise Margaret *insert last name here* got PERFECT as in 100% on something science and math related... like no jokes. what the fuck is going on here?? i FAILED math and science in High SChool! I really like this class... too bad today was the last Lab. My TA rocked! shes probably the reason i'm doing so well in this class.. well minus the exam which i got 55% on. but we dont talk about that.
whoo! i called my mom to tell her. she was soo proud. i <3 my mom. and then msgd emily. and then i called candice. i am such a loser.. but i like NEVER get good marks.
oh and this is mina... GO READ THE CHAPTERS YOU HAVENT READ YET!!! Tristan and Rylee rock my fucking socks!! is it bad that i love fictional characters?
fictionlyn rocks
so i like need to go buy clothing.. really really badly. i was finding some Amy Lee pictures for my next layout, and i love her clothing. she dresses like a cross between an fairy and the victorian era (corsets and such) i found some great pictures of her to replace the layout that i made earlier.. it was orlando bloom, and it was ok but nothing special. i'm sorry Tony, but i'm sick of you already... but you have been up for awhile =)
*someone call a dosctor, sarah is talking to her layout and refering to herself in third person*
i'm in a pretty darn good mood! i'm done my essay i just need it edited and spiffed up etc
oh shit, i have a project due tomorow
crap
oh wait. i finished it like a week ago and it's total crap. i was suposed to fix it this week. opps. i guess i'm handing it in like this.. too bad so sad
[>]MOOD - good
[>]MUSIC - Kill Bill vol. 1 soundtrack - Santa Esmeralda - Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood
[>]THINKING - blah
i have a hole in my health card
ahhhh
and when they took the picture for my new one i was laughing at my brother and looking at him, so i'm looking away. gahhhh!!! it's going to be so much worse than my last one.
*runs for the hills*
oh wait i live on a hill. well kinda a hill. i do have a semi hill in my backyard. maybe. anywhoo. time to go shopping with emily and spend MONEY.
oh and i started my next layout.. i'll put it up after my birthday. whoo
i did find a pretty shirt though. but for the first time every i didnt have enough boobage to fit into it properly. the botom was tight, but the top. a little drafty. i'm in shock. i thought i was big enough for that to never happen. my poor boobage.
ooh and i forgot to post this earlier. Evanescence broke up.
[>]MOOD - good
[>]MUSIC - Texas - Inner Smile
[>]THINKING - do you ever want to just end it all?
london was SUPER
yeah i had fun. but all i mostly did was sleep which is what i do at home anyways. bah
but uma has nice friends, and a KILLER rez. it's brand new and sooo ice compared to the stupid York ones. but i didnt do any shopping, i just bought some makeup, so i still need to go out and buy clothes. maybe on my birthday becasue thats the only time i'll have
so uma burned me the new Kylie cd, Body Language. i must say that i'm a little dissapointed. not as good as fever at all. it's ok though. but when it comes out, i'm not gonna go out and buy it
i listened to it on the train ride back. i lucked out with where i was sitting. there were like no empty seats and for some strange reason evereyone was walking by these four empty ones so i sat there, and lo and behold, four guys about my age, all university students sat with me (it was one of the four seat sections, two seats facing two seats) one was ugly and was listening to the greatful dead, ew. the next was hot but i saw him with his gf at the station so no. and the next was cute but too tall and had some strange obsession with chocolate. he ate like three chocolate bars. strange.
yeah after going to western i kinda realized that i like living at home for now. i'm not really ready to move out. and i also realized, scary thought here..... that i actually like york. i know, it blew my mind too.
so i dont know what i'm gonna do next year.
OOOOH. does anyone want to go on a europe trip with me next year?? my parents are all for it. they think that it would be a great experience for me, they are all excited and will pay for part which rocks. they will either pay for part or pay for my books next year, so it's about the same. i'm either going on the London & Paris trip. or the London, Paris & Amsterdam trip. my mom wants me to go one the Great Britian trip which is just aroud all of the UK. or the all around euope trip. she basically wants me to do everything. i need people to come with me. i'm going in April/May. uma said something about like 4 or more people and we get a 5% discount. but even if only one person comes with me, it woudl be great. here, go here to look at all the packages.
i was going to go into all the hysteria that uma and i had on saturday night. but it will take forever, lets just sayv that i've never been asked if i was on crack or drunk more than that nigt. and we were just extremely hyper. but lets just say that we came up with the ultimate answer to 'Armz House', 'Legs Appartment' and 'But Shack'
the weather is just so amazing
after dinner i just went and lay on my bed and watched the lightning slash across the sky. it was so errily beautiful. god it was amazing. and i was listening to my coldplay cd, and the lightning just went with the music. it was amazing. expecially jusring the song 'Politik'. such a pathetic fallacy. it was cool.
i had a long talk with cristina about something thats been bothering me. she helped a bit. i'm sorry candice! i wanted to talk to you but i havent talked to cris in a while, and when you phoned me back i felt bad. i didnt mean for you to hang up etc. i was hoping you would be online tonight. but msn is devoid of people who i normally talk to. loads of people are online but they dont msg me back ever so i've given up on them.
gah. i'm soo happy that i get today off. sick sick sic. well, not that sick, but sick enought that if i had school it would be hard to think straight.
bah, all the big words are gone from my vocab, i used them all on my essays.
i finished my second one about candice yesterday, and i'm half done my SF one. *pats self on back* good job sarah! now if only i ever did my readings.... no.
so today my dad was home becasue it's rememberance day and my sister was home sick. so my empty days of procastinating were filled with... just plain procastinating.
i woke up right at 11 so i went downstairs told my sister to shut up and we watched the min of silence on tv. it was strange because this year i wasnt at school, where normally i get pissed at all the fuckers who speak and joke around. people fucking died for you, and the least you can do is pay them respect for one fucking min of your life.
then i actually did work. wow. but i still have to do my lab. i'll do that in a bit, it's only like 7.
and yes. i did procastinate today. i have been itching to fool around with this layout, but i didnt. so i just created a blog for my sister. yay! now one more layout to make!! but i was making it on the family computer which has cable, but that meant that all my shit was on this computer so i didnt make her a nice pretty layout, i just put my old Audrey one up. and hahaha, silly girl couldnt figure out a blog name. i had to do it. it's similar to mine. whoo! but mine rocks!
it looks that Dave & Busters is out for the birthday. meh. i'll have it figured out by the weekend.
yeah and uma i mentioned to my dad that you wanted me there early and he was like 'ok, well be there by 7. no? then 8.' gahhhh! so i may be there by 9. if you still want me there early. how should i let you know that i'm there? phone you? oooo. and he gave me money... my parents NEVER give me money... so we HAVE to go shopping!!!!!
[>]MOOD - good, tired and sick, but good
[>]MUSIC - No Doubt, The Distillers & Garbage - Call Me (Live Blondie cover)
[>]THINKING - blah. my nose is stuffed
skipping in university feels different from skipping in high school.
still fun, but with more guilt attached. like the 'my parents are paying for me not to go to this class' kind of guilt
but Emily and i are BAD girls for skipping today. but i had fun today.
first between 1am - 2am this morning Em and i were very very delerious on MSN. i think someone should have shot us or something. it took me an hour to realize that i really had no reason to be awake, and online doing nothing. then this morning, when i phoned Em the delerium continued.
and emily + no coffe = sarah sitting in class with a sleeping emily next to her, taking all the notes and randomly hitting emily... hard.
fun fun
and we were learning about the G spot in that class. very educational. i missed my bio teacher. she was sick for a week. so we didnt learn anything for a week. but now she's back so all the fun learning about sex is back. goodie. it was funny because when she started talking about the g spot she was like 'girls sit back and enjoy, guy get you pen and paper out. you might want to learn about this' ... i love that class. who would have thought that i would.
then emily skipped her tutorial. then candice and i looked at hot (to her) brown guys. then i skipped and went to the MALL (whoo! oh wait no money) with Em. fun filled day.
i actually had fun wandering the mall with emily. and EMILY IS FLIRTING!!!!!! yay! proud of her! who would have thought that you can flirt with big words over text messages. ... if that made no sense to you i'm sorry. you kinda had to be there. fun fun. ..... 'masochist' tee hee hee
yeah at HMV they have the whole 2 CD's for $30. i was going to buy the Blondie greatest hits cd, but i couldnt find another CD. most of the CD's were for greatest hits for people who's music i dont really like like David Bowie. but now i kinda wish i had just bought the damm cd. but then i have never really listened to mush Blondie music. but all the music i like now is inspired by Blondie. hmmmm.
so when i got home i went through my Dad's record collection. he has soooo many records in like mint condition and i recognized most of them. Uma you would die. it's all classic music that you like. i dont remember all becasue he has like hundreds but he had loads of Queen, The Police, Rolling Stones, The Beatles, Moody Blues, Pink Floyd, The Alaln Parsons Project (i tried to explain to my mom why it cracked me up that he had a bunch of APP records, but she didnt get it. oh seth green), Fleetwood mac, Paul McCartney, The Eagles, Led Zeplin, uh. crap i dont remember. but lots and lots. he had a few strange records that i wouldnt expect him to have like Michael Jacksons Thriller, Tina Turner, Santana, Cinderella. then i found out that the Cinderella one was mine. apparently the only vinyl that i own is for the freaking disney movie. go figure.
SO UMA. is there anything that you want me to bring with me??? i have more books if you want them.... let me see. i have:
- Prozac Nation (maybe you could like it, too close to home for me )
- The Bell Jar
- Memoirs of a Geisha
- How to Deal
hahaha would you like to read my SF books for school? no? ok then. but you can read 'Frankenstein' or 'The Time Machine' OOOO!!! i know! you want to read 'Brave New World'! i know youre just dying to read it all over again. *gack* i have to go write a fucking essay about it and 'We' *chokes self*
- ooo you could read The Virgin Suicides!! but CANDICE STILL HAS IT AND HASNT GIVEN IT BACK YET.... so if she does you can read it
Oh and Uma you have a cd burner riiight??? and cable internet riiight?? and you want to let your cable deprived, burner deprived friend burn cds on your computer riiight??
i really really really need to buy more clothes. i have none. and i have no money
anyways. now i have to go write an essay on Candice. mucho fun. fun fun fun.
[>]MOOD - cold
[>]MUSIC] - Bush - Straight no Chaser
[>]THINKING -
new layout. that last one really did nothing for me. it was only up there becasue the one before it was ugly, and to tide me over until i could get my first every layout featuring only a guy. it could only have been Tony. Em and i decided that it will stay up until my birthday. who wants to bet that that dosent happen?
So nice to know that none of you fucking cared that my school was burning down. great to know. and no, it's still there, no visible damage.
:: we're gonna start a riot! riot! a ri-ri-ri-ri riot!
::
[>]MOOD - tired
[>]MUSIC - MTV awards
[>]THINKING
"Fires burning, fires burning. Draw near, draw near. In the glowing, in the glowing. Come sing and be merry."
YORK IS BURNING DOWN
MUAHHAHAHAHA
well, just the mall or York Lanes as it's called.
but still
you wait your whole life for your school to burn down. then when a building finally sets on fire, it's the fucking mall part of the school. not anything important like your actual classrooms.
[>]MOOD - great, but tired
[>]MUSIC - TLC - I'm Good at Being Bad
[>]THINKING -
i've had this song in my head since like 6, and i hadnt heard this song in years.... i havent listened to this CD in FOREVER. ah well.
so tody was a good day. for both Emily and Me.
it was emily's birthday, filled with M. goodness and right about now filled with John Mayer goodness. i was going to write about what happened in detail, but then she beat me to the punch by posting it all even before i got home. so go here to read it.
and today was good for me because i got my Bio lab back, and i thought i had failed it becasue i so did not get it all all!! like it took me and my lab partner two and a half hours to do it, in a two hour class. and we were doing things as a class, so we should have understood. but no. i ttok applied grade 10 science. yes i can admit it, and am not ashamed. so i got my lab back with a 88%. hello? damm straight! considering that i did really nad on my last one and only got 67%. this kicks ass. anyways enough of boring you all with my marks.
my bio teacher wasnt there today. so i had a nice nap and wrote Uma a loooong letter. the replacement prof didnt know anything about the course and was teaching us things we learned in the first week. right then. ok. i'm pretty sure that if students who are taking biology of sex, and have been taking it for like three months, i'm sure that we would know what sexual reproduction and asexual reproduction are. please.
and i had a good film tutorial too.
Oh, theres this girl in my film tutorial, and she looks alot like Katie. well not that much, but she really reminds me of Katie, and guess what her name is, .... Katie. strange.
Oh, so my mom and i went out and bought me a new winter coat. i found NOTHING at all that i liked. in the whole damm mall! then when i got into the hellstore aka Winners, i found the perfect jacket, there was only one of it, it was long (which i didnt want b/c i already have a leather trench coat but meh) a dusty rose pink colour, suede and has embroidery and some other cool things on it. but it was a small and unless i cut my chest off and lost like 20 pounds, there was no way in hell that i would fit into it. but my mom is very smart and was like so why dont we go to the other Winners down the street. Duh! so we went and i didnt see it at all, but then i hear my mom going 'Sarah! I found it!' and they had one and a large that just fit!! so i got a kick ass new coat! whoooo.
i really really want to go shopping. when i was wandering aimlessly in the mall i saw sooo much stuff that i would soo buy. why don't i have money? right... beceause i only work one 5hr shift a week. gotcha. but honestly so much nice clothes. and on SALE.
oh, if any of you get a chance go to Bombay Kids. i could so design my room with all the stuff in there. it is soo pretty and cool. where the hell was stuff like this when i was a kid? like look at all the crap that children have now. and then you look at me. i played with barbies and ninja turtles. on a side note, today in film we had to talk about our first experience in film, and someone mentioned Ninja Turtles, and me and the guy next to me go so excited. i played with what my brother played with, so i was so there for the Ninja Turtles.
i digress
no wait, i never had a point.
bah
i'm really nervous about my presentation tomorow. i hope i dont fuck up, or get nevrous. no i know i'll get nervous. i better not eat anything before hand. oh well, at least my handout will look pretty =)
[>]MOOD - good
[>]MUSIC - NIN - Hurt
[>]THINKING - my hands are cold
wow, it's been awhile since i actually wrote something worth reading. but the thing is nothing really important has happened, or nothing worth mentioning.
so today on my day off i finished my presentation handout, then did my bio lab and guess what, i procrastinated as usual. i finished a layout that i was working on, put it up around 2, and by 7 i had already made anothr layout to put up in it's place. i just HATED the last layout. i loved the picture, but i decided to make a green layout becasue you dont see many green layouts out there, and now i know why. becasue they look godawful UGLY. it was ok looking, but i also realized that i dont care for the colour green that much. or just that nasty shade.
so heres a nice grey layout. i actually made two. one with a Tragic Kingdom era picture of NxD, and then this one. i may switch it back. who knows.
so tonight when i went out to make a zillion photocopies of my handout, there was this deep dense cloud of fog covering Markham. i love it when things like that happen. you can't see anything, and it's all erily beautiful. it remined me of when a heavy snowfall happens. It makes the world all white and silent. there is just this calm silence that covers the world and blankets the sounds of everything around you. you can only hear select sounds like the sound of your shoes walking, or your breathing, but you can't hear the cars going by on the streets nearby, and the city lights are dimmed by this mass of grey thats covering the world. *sigh* it's so amazing. seeing it all made me want to write descriptive stories like i did in grade 8, and i thought i was the most amazing writer in the world because i was the only person i knew who got A+ on anything.. then i got to high school, learned i was a shit writer and stoped writing. fucking high school.
so i was going to write about the NxD video for 'It's My Life' here but i never did. so i guess i'll write about it now. I like the video. it cracked me up. but it's not their best. if you want to see a kick ass video go watch 'New'. i love all their videos, well no wait i didnt like 'Hey Baby' at all. and this oneis a good video. it has Gewn as a Jean Harlow type person from the '30s(?) (she plays Jean Harlow in a movie coming out next year) it remined me of the great gatsby, and i hated that book. anyways, moving on, essentially, she kills Tony, Adrian and Tom. Tom looked like a pedophile and creeped me out. Tony did not look like himself at all! he looked like a chubby brown child with blonde hair. candice said that she hates his blonde hair, and i normally disagree with her, but in the video he looks strange. and she runs him over with a car. =) good times. and Adrian looked hot! i was surprised. she seduces him (*gack* it was like a brother and sister, so so wrong!) and kills him in the bath tub. yeah in a nutshell thats the video. gwen did a good job acting, and adrian was funny as hell. good video.
on a side note, i saw Christina Aguilera's video right after i saw the NxD video. it bothered me. it's a good song. but the video is essentially her staning in some building in lingerie, waving her arms aimlessly around, not in time to the music at ALL. and she just keeps on waving them like windmills. oh yeah, and no bra... she's like popping out.
hey did fictionlyn die or something? it's been weeks. i know she was sick, but she hasnt updated her journal or story. hmmmmm.
anyways, off to upload the new layout. so if you missed the one that was up here earlier today, you didnt miss much
i'm not so sure how much i actually like this layout. but i needed to do something other than schoolwork. meh. i may change it back to an old one.
to do list:
1) Sociology - class presentation on thursday
2) Sociology - essay on presentation - next thursday
3) Sociology - project on CANDICE (tee hee hee) due nov 20th
4) SF Culture - essay due ... on my fucking birthday
:: Somebody get me out of here I'm tearing at myself
::
[>]MOOD - argh
[>]MUSIC - misc TV
[>]THINKING - argh
ARGH
ife is driving me crazy. school is driving me crazy. i just want to sit down and cry, then scream, then hit things
*screams at top of lungs*
and i'm siting here reading blogs, when i SHOULD be writing my sociology essay. but it's due on the 20th and i just cant start now. it's like a mental thing. i can't do things early.
this is my song right now
Medication
I don't need an education
I learnt all I need from you
They've got me on some medication
My point of balance was askew
It keeps my temperature from rising
My blood is pumping through my veins
Somebody get me out of here
I'm tearing at myself
Nobody gives a damn about me
Or anybody else
I wear myself out in the morning
You're asleep when I get home
Please don't call me self defending
You know it cuts me to the bone
Though it's really not surprising
I hold a force I can't contain
Somebody get me out of here
I'm tearing at myself
Nobody gives a damn about me
Or anybody else
And still you call me co-dependent
Somehow you lay the blame on me
And still you call me co-dependent
Somehow you lay the blame on me
Somebody get me out of here
I'm tearing at myself
I've got to make a point these days
To extricate myself
Somebody get me out of here
I'm tearing at myself
Nobody gives a damn about me
Or anybody else
And still you call me co-dependent
Somehow you lay the blame on me
And still you call me co-dependent
Somehow you lay the blame on me
Somehow you lay the blame on me
Somehow you lay the blame on me
so i worked today. it was LONG but it was ok. Nikki is so nice. she bought me a FV capachino (i can't spell) and was really nice to me all shift. ha and i made Dominique take one of my shifts... he he he.
so apparently its christmas. white rose is all christmas. my mom has gone christmas shopping. and heres the kicker... White Rose is playing christmas MUSIC. yes, christmas music. ..... but it's better than last years same half an hour of music played over an over again. this time it's actually christmas music but current artists. i recognized christina aguilera *nsync, 98degrees, Destinys child, Bon Jovi... now if only they would play the No Doubt christmas song. it's the best christmas song EVER. 'Oi to the World' ... i can listen to it year round and not puke, normal christmas music does that to me.
name: Sarah Louise
age: 18
birthday: November 21home: toronto
nationality: canadian school: York University
status:Singlework: unemployed height:5'2 eye color:brown/topaz hair color:Brown but
dyedBLACK as INK
